Man there are some days where I just can't keep it together... I can't just chill out and relax... I don't even listen to music (which usually cheers me up) I just get insanely depressed and start to think about how life, and the world, aren't fair. I start to think of all the time I've wasted being lonesome trying to achieve my goals when all I really needed to do was meet people and be happy... Im not one for meeting new people. All the friends I want I already know, thats it. I do my best to put down work and keep grinding without hyperventilating from time-to-time. Its hard to take this path... Its hard to keep striding. Its hard to pretend your happy. I can't work up a smile today all I feel like doing is sleeping. zzZZzzz. Such a great escape...to sleep.... Makes you kind of like the idea of "resting in peace" I DIDNT say "DEATH" because death doesn't make it sound as nice...Resting in peace does. I can hear music playing in my head when I write, its like my words are being said by some corny hollywood movie star to, you know like how they do in the movies. Its like the air around me is full of words and every breath I take collects them. One thing makes me happy today...And thats blowing off steem. What a better day to waste my time away then sitting here with a sort of care for who my readers are or might be. A clown can only tell so many jokes before he brakes down. Know that. Today just isn't my day. Ill be good though things work out...
