Hi, guys!
So, this is my second post in my survival diary. Yesterday I was at the doctor's office, had a meeting, and received a correction to my medication plan. Again, I'm shocked how many pills I will have to take during the next week. Actually y medication of BPD is the reason why I'm completely sober during last three years, not even a drop of any alcohol. Not that I miss it, but anyway.
I already was on a similar medication plan and I know how it works. Actually it puts you into kind of a hibernation for three-five days while other meds are correcting your state, so when you start going away from the medication plan you return to normal life as a normal person, but first you have to spend your time asleep, for several super long days. Well, it's a better option than instant heartbeat, panic attacks and anxiety attacks.
I also have a hope that my doc will find a special... I don't know what to call it, but you know, as a rest place for people like me. In our country having a mental illness is a stigma, so it's hard to find something like that, and I'm not sure if I can go to a voyage to have some rest and to change atmosphere. Last time I did it ended dramatically, so.... But we're seeking for it. Now they start appearing, so may be I'll be lucky to be one of the first testers.
So, that's how it is at the moment. I hope you all guys are well, and see you in the next post!
Love, Inber