For @daily.prompt/25-june-2025-mariannewests-freewrite-writing-prompt-day-2779-admiration
I admire...me.
What am I talking about?
I'm not trying to brag. I'm trying to be bold. I'm making a decision, and then feeling afraid of it.
Where's the fear from?
Here is the...
Oh my.
Ok.
Here's the thing.
The discomfort is usually not there. I'm in a community of people who treat me as the person I am and I can be me.
But sometimes there are people in my life who haven't spent the time? The energy? The attention it takes to know who I am. And
And it feels terrible. And throws me for a loop for days.
And and and
Maybe it's not this.
And maybe this won't happen.
Oh, I'm being bowled over by all these emotions. This fear. It's not a lot of emotions. It's dread. Just the one, really, and it ebbs and flows.
It fills me up, and then a crest of hope washed it away, and then the fear rises up until I can't and then
And then
Oh gosh.
And sometimes I think I'm just tired.
I just need to plod through the work until I can sleep and someday I'll sleep enough that the tiredness will go away, and then I'll be able to figure out all the emotions.
I'll
I'll
Who or what am I?
Maybe I need to... something.
I dunno.
I want to say it, though.
I am
Ugh. My fear is that it isn't true. Or it's not true in the way that it's true for other people and by saying it, I will make ...I will diminish them.
Ok. Here's what needs to happen. I need to have some long conversations about it with the people that I'm afraid I might diminish
No. No that's not true. I already know that's not true.
Ha. I got through the whole freewrite without saying it. But it's food for thought.
