There's a friend that stick closer than a brother, yes and those kind of friends don't come by easily. Being friends with someone is not easy but then it's easy to be friendly with people and that is what leads to us making friends. I guess I don't make friends a lot but I'm a very friendly person (hoping I make good friends). I know making friends is not something to play with so I love taking my time in choosing those I call my friends.
I remember there was a time in school when we got an orientation that we should choose our friends wisely and also we shouldn't let our friends choose us. While growing up, I was this friendly kind of person, I love mingling with people without caring too much what type of person they are. At some point I could barely differentiate between being friendly and making friends. I became a bad person to so many people because I later realized that I wasn't friends with them since they always want me to check up on them every single time.
Due to how jovial I was, I thought everyone I laughed with was my friend but I was wrong and I got to learn better as I got older. I can easily be friendly to anyone but then I don't easily make friends because I know if care's not taken, one of us might end up being a bad person. Most times I intentionally refuse to be friendly to some persons because I know it might lead into them wanting to be friends with me.
Having so many friends around means having more enemies around me too because I know it's hard to have so many friends who are real and genuinely care for you. Personally I don't like keeping so many friends, I prefer dedicating my time to one or two people who are true to me. Having so many people who I call friends will most likely end in disappointment so I prefer having just few of them that can be there for me whenever I need them.
Even though I don't need many friends, I do need as many people around me as much as possible. Having people around me who aren't necessarily my friends gives me less expectations from them and I can easily work with that than with someone who I call my friend that ends up being someone else. I prefer to be good to as many people as possible and keep appreciating those who are trying to be there for me wherever they can.
Trying to stick with having friends feels somehow limiting for me because I can hardly relate with people as much as I should because I don't see them as my friends. I would love it if I have a friend but then I won't mind just relating well with people as much as possible (now I think I actually love making a lot of friends, lol). I don't like having high expectations of people because I know everyone has their story and how they see and perceive things.
While writing this I just ended up realizing I like having more friends but that's with people who have like minds like me. I'm someone that love connecting with people, not necessarily seeing them or calling them all the time but being able to connect with them whenever the opportunity suffices. The reason why I love to have many friends is because it proves to me that I'm living a good life.
It's not easy to be in good terms with so many people so being able to have many people that I can call friends would be an achievement for me but I do know that the journey to achieving that won't be really nice because people will definitely disappoint me but the good thing is I already know they might disappoint me so I won't be so surprised when it happens. I'd love to keep making new friends and hope they become real friends in a long run 馃グ.
That's all for my response to Hivelearners featured edition contest week 100 edition 1 on "MAKING NEW FRIENDS".
