As I start writing to sacrifice to THE FLAMES, I can feel my heart leap with excitement and uncertainty. I’m wondering what is in my heart that I wish to give to the flame but I know it will be a worthy sacrifice. When it comes to writing or creating anything, I always prefer to let it flow, I prefer when it works magic on its own. While I was thinking of what to write first to the flames, a lot of things came to my mind but because my body was weak, it affected my mind too and it was hard to settle for anything to write about and I told myself to wait it out. Time never goes wrong. At least that’s what I’m choosing to accept.
While I was sick for almost two weeks, I was worried. I thought I won’t be able to recover from what I was feeling at that point. It was serious. I hated drugs so I knew I’d be fighting a lot to get through what I’m already in. I even had to take drip and injections too. I was that weak and it made everything about me weak too. At night I couldn’t sleep. I kept feeling this sharp pain all over my body and I couldn’t even cry which was so unlike me. Usually I like crying when I was in pain but at that point, crying took so much energy from me and I just couldn’t afford to cry.
I’d roll from one side to the other after much struggles and it wasn’t fun at all. Those nights were the longest. It felt like I was living a particular night more than once the same way. That made me scared but I tried to remind myself that I wasn’t alone, both physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally and even digitally. That comforted me a whole lot and it kept me going. It kept me pushing through my fears and worries. All that I started focusing on was recovering and it took no time before I started seeing improvements in my health.
At that point when I thought I might not make it out alive, I felt it was already too late for me to appreciate the things around me, that’s if I didn’t come out alive. That thought me something which will be what I’ll share with us. Sometimes, we don’t appreciate the things and people around us, maybe because we are offended by them or they do the things we don’t like or something and because of that, we fail to tell them just how much they mean to us and how blessed we are to have them in our lives. On your sick bed, it’s hard to do that. You will only lie there looking at them and saying all the things in your head.
Sadly, sometimes when life gives us another chance, we still fail to use it to appreciate the things and people we know mean so much to us. Appreciating people seems easy when you think of it but actually showing them that you appreciate them is hard. We overthink it and before we know it, we just end up not telling them what we had in mind. Well, need me remind you that time is not on your side. You are the one spending time, time is always going to move in a circle but you can’t do that.
For you to keep something burning - the flame, you have to say things when you get the opportunity because you don’t know what will happen in the next second. It’s not yours neither is it mine to know.
Thank you for reading through. ❤️
