It gives me mixed feelings, like she grows up so fast.
I don't exactly know how to word this feeling out but hmmm, she is as old as she has been in me! She is my very last baby and perhaps that is why I am feeling it strong this round knowing after this she would be spending more time in the world than she has ever been in me.
Well, it is still a tremendous pleasure to watch her grow. I do motherhood quite wholeheartedly, though there are times I have lost it too.
This girl now makes her sounds like "babababa, mamamama" and she smiles so much, especially excited when her second brother plays with her. Her eldest brother protects her like none other, more concerned in many things than me.
Anyway, recently someone messaged me, "She still doesn't have any teeth? My baby already has 7!" Well, I couldn't help but felt a bit worried too because her baby was born on the same day as mine.
I try not to get all sensitive, but yes, some words do affect me. Some other mothers who also gave birth last year came to tell me, "I wish you all the best for the 10 months mark." I WAS LIKE ..... how should I even respond to that? Thanks?
The thing is every child is different and they have their own oace and seasons. Even though I have 3 myself, none of their journey is identically same or even similar.
We definitely have a very different CNY this year, and I never grow tired of taking her photos. While she is willing, I will keep taking and dressing her up.
Well, I guess it is about time to plan for her birthday. I dont think we will do a very elaborate one but the other day I read a good reminder post on IG that the first year is not just celebrating the baby, but also the mama. I think I will work a little on that part for myself this round too.
