Today, I finally realized fully that the person I was questioning, back and forth and back and forth, really is the twinflame. However, I pretty much kicked him to the curb. Why? Mainly because he just wasn't showing signs that he REALLY wanted to be with me, it felt more like ...I don't know...but I've lived long enough to know when a man is into you and when he is just about to jump away from you.
So I pushed him to jump and he did. That's that. Am I sad? Yes, I still love him. But if the Universe wants us together, then that will happen. Plus, I pretty much made it hard for him to want to know me anymore. But frankly, it's kinda my turn and had he shown integrity for real with me, I would have been right there for him. But I just have met alot of men like this in my life and even he is no exception.
Maybe it needs to happen this way. I guess I really was just supposed to know about him and that's it. But now I'm looking to fill this heart in some way. It's not like it has to be a person, cause frankly, people in terms of romance fail me. But if I can't fill that part of my heart that's been torn apart, I mean really Angels, how much must I take on this?
So many people tend to think they really know what I need, but to be honest, they don't have a clue. When you get older, as a woman, there is so much you are really done with, it's amazing. Ah well, not meaning to be the debbie downer, but just expressing.
So, what now Universe? What now?
