The Lag Is Real

I'm sure it has a lot to do with the season, but oof, my motivation be lagging these days.

I mean, some of my meh attitude may be due to the reality that as I did my school schedule for the week this morning I discovered that I had no less than 22 assignments for the week, many of them multi-hour long endeavors, and honestly, I am just not feeling all that perky about navigating such a monumental task. I mean, I love learning, but a lot of the work I am doing right now is very taxing on every existential level because I am learning about therapy modalities by practicing those modalities on ME.

That said, yesterday I had a half day intensive conference for my macro practice class, and that delightful interlude fired my motivational buzzies up a bit. Through a series of serendipitous happenstances I got placed in a group that's working on a super awesome project of our own design. Yes, we have to develop an evidence-based curriculum for our very excellent and timely idea, but still, needs must and trailblazing or bust as I like to say.

Overall, I need to pull myself out of this mental funk quick, fast, and in a hurry as my life meter is about to hit all sorts of chaotic frenzy again. Next week I have to spend the entire week on my farm in North Idaho tending to all manner of things from facilitating meetings to attending internship placement events. And next month the hubs and I are off on an adventure. Plus, knowing me, I am sure there's going to be some wild black swan event plopping into my existential pond soon.

I often wonder if many of you are feeling a bit meh this time of year, a little bit of lag in the feed so to speak? Of course, that could just be the fatigued Kat brain speaking, I did just complete 7 straight hours of coursework. I think I am going to go get a cup of tea. Or maybe kick Jojo out of Cora's fluffy bed and curl up in it for a bit of a restorative repose. Cause Self-care.