It's the 3rd half-written post I deleted already and I'm pissed. I don't work well when I'm distracted. And I had plenty of interruptions and dead times today.
Obviously, everyone experiences distractions nowadays and that's no excuse to not get things done. And everyone works better when they are focused and uninterrupted on a task.
But somehow, I wasn't able to get back into focus today after all the distractions and wasn't able to follow through with any of the topics I tried to write about in the previous 3 attempts.
It was also getting a little late compared to my usual time to start writing my posts, and a time-crisis perception might have circled my mind.
In reality, it's not truly a time crisis, I still have plenty of time to write a decent post. But the perception is real and I started feeling it, especially after I found myself in front of a blank screen for the 2nd time. Since then, I tried once more, and it didn't work out.
It's not what people would call "writer's block", although I had that too in the past. But not for a very long time. It seems the longer you keep writing without taking significant breaks (like weeks or more), the easier it is to keep doing it.
I had three ideas (this is the 4th, but just a free write) to work on, and I could have had more.
But somehow my brain wasn't able to focus all the way to make them into full posts. Maybe the ideas weren't great either. I had different ideas too, but they required more time to better analyze the topic and decide what to write about.
I'd rather think it's a little bit of exhaustion or burnout (funny, I read about perception and burnout yesterday). But I haven't been sleeping very well lately, and maybe that is taking its toll.
I haven't even updated my collection of posts in two or three weeks, although I keep saying I'll do it. Normally, I do it once a week. But I'll get to that... eventually. 馃槃 I promise!
Overall not a great day to post something for me. But I wanted to mark the wasted time on the 3 half-written posts somehow.
