Sometimes, when I get serious about getting my act together and liberating myself from the chains of destructive addictions, my algorithm starts to pump in biblical content and Christian perspective, as if this energy of resistance was directly related to my Christian foundations.
This makes me question whether the Bible was the correct information for a good life, and I just strayed away but now have to find my way back. For a long time, I've believed that good and evil don't really exist, only action and consequence. But something else happens when I begin resisting addiction: I get sick in unexplainable ways.
In these Christian videos, they will usually say that if you decide to move away from sinful behaviors, hellish forces will be after you because they are losing a source of energy. This actually makes sense from an esoteric perspective as we are creators, and every action either reinforces a reality or diminishes its power.
Since last week, I've been having the worst back pain ever, and my usual healing methods are not working. If you've read my latest posts, you'll know I've been cleaning myself up from several addictions during the last two weeks and with all this pain they just keep popping up in my mind as a good solution to feel better instantly.
It might all have a neuroscience explanation, but I would expect other kinds of withdrawal symptoms, not this insane backache, which makes me add this religious or magical perspective to the deal. Anyway, what do you think? Am I under attack or just my brain releasing insane cortisol to bring me back to get my dose of cheap dopamine?
