Hello hives family good day to you all,this is my first time posting in this wonderful community am so excited to be part of this wonderful community,and happy to be among the participate of this emotional topic today..
I was taught in school that the father is the head of the family and I force my mind to believe it, because with my father experience I don't think so,when ever I see children with their father my heart will be filled with joy I just feel the love in the air and it flows with me even if he is not my dad.Fathers are really caring, loving and supportive in every family and I believe that they play the main rules in the family or should I say some families..
As a grown up and mature guy I never get to feel the love of Father,I never get to know him well,I never get to enjoy the love and the support a father gives to a child,it was really painful and heartbreaking to grow like that,one day I was forced to ask my mom about my dad and to know what really happened and why did he never looked on us again. my mom who didn't really wanted to say anything about it later told me, she said the issues started when she was pregnant with me,he never wanted me to be born for a reason best known to him and he told her to abort me but she refused and he was really angry with her that most time he leaves the house without giving her money for food,atimes she have to do some hard work to eat with me in her stomach...at this point I was filled with tears in my heart,my heart was already bleeding,how could he do this,why would he want me dead he only has two sons,what was really his problem all this questions moves through my heart as I listen to my mom with a bleeding heart.she said when we were little they were packing to another house and her just told her that he will meet her there and he never came to the house,she always sees him but atimes he don't even ask as if he knows her..
many years passed and he married another wife without letting my mom know about it...she said after the news that he was remarried she was bitter,pained but she just have to move on with us...
After hear all this I just wish I could see him and ask him some questions like "what really happened,why did you want me dead,tell me your own part of the story",growing without a fatherly support was a had time for me ever as a kid when I see some of my mates or friends having a good time together with their father I just use the love in the atmosphere to fill in the opened space in my heart..
He made me hate myself and even almost all father in the world, atimes i regret being a guy because one day I would get to answer to the name father,I just pray to be more better than him,i could remember one day I went to the market with my aunt and she saw him there and she called him by his name I was so surprised, actually I saw about 5 years old then and that was the only picture of him I even had in my life his picture was stored in my heart,most times I see him in my dreams we will always play together that is the love he gives me and it was in a dream..
me and my family had to go relocate back to the village and that was when every thing got worst,most time I wish I was dead never to see all this going on,most people insulted us because we don't have a as father a back bone.
most times it comes from our cousin those who act as if there love and cared for us..must times I feel guilty of every thing going on because everything was going well untill my mom conceived me then everything turn around...
i just which this could be a fiction,but it really my sad story..
most times when i sleep I just wish i could wake up and find him beside me but guess it never going to happen,I thank my mom for making it possible for me to be alive because most times when I am in the bad mood she is always there for me from day one still date,she's the best thing that ever happened to me.
.she play the role of a father and played it well and even did more... to all the mothers out there you're the best and I love you all,i wish that the mothers should be the head of the family for many reasons...hope you enjoyed the reading. thank you for reading hope to see you guys around...all pictures belongs to me. #reflection #awaerness #ecency #emotion #father #consciousness #hivecuba #sadmoment
