Yes. I am also clinically diagnosed with chronic depression and paranoid schizophrenia for almost a decade.
My life was basically hell on earth because of chemical imbalances in my brain. So being dead was very attractive compared to living. I never knew that while suffering until I was rescued.
For many years I was figuring out why on earth I was chronically depressed because I don't face worse hardship like poverty stricken people or traumatised by war and death.
I completely lost my mind and can't remember what happened until my family rescued me to the psychiatric ward.
I survived because I had clinical intervention plus medications. So I am like those people with chronic disease that had to take pills daily just to continue living.
I want to tell the tale of my decade of recovery and the previous episodes of being off the rails out of reality, but I got not much time to narrate those times into an essay or something.
Long story short, I can function and reply to you here. Now, I have no intention to commit suicide because death is a mystery. Maybe dying and death can be worse than living the worse moment in life.
Just never loose hope and don't shy away from asking help if you are in trouble.
Photo Credit: Riccardo Retez @rez7 from Unsplash.com