Five Minute Freewrite: show her!

After a recent breakup, I decided to live life and put myself out there. It was easier said than done, but my mind was made up. I tried meeting and interacting with someone, but the PTSD was there, and I noticed this because I was asking myself what if she does the same thing as my ex? I had to snap myself out of this what if thought.

We talked and chatted for a while, then I have decided to show her who I truly am. Eventually, we had to meet up, and I tried to explain and show her who I am. But guess what, she was not pleased, and I am back to square one. All my inner thoughts that were shouting, show her! Show her!, are currently nowhere to be found. Guess I just have to be me and let the right woman decide.