I've not had much by way of drama when it comes to romance. Sure, I've had my fair share of breakups but they've largely been what we'd call 'mutual', without unnecessary bad blood or hatred attached to it. Of course it still stings for a while but I've learnt to trust time quite faithfully beyond anything else for its healing qualities.
The older I get the less emotions am willing to invest in something as fragile as a relationship with someone else. Not just from a romantic standpoint, but even other social demands are not as interesting. There's always the feeling at the back of my mind that am probably not having the best of experiences by not fully committing to them, but with sufficient time it appears the universe justifies my stance.
Of course it has significant drawbacks which includes limited results from limited commitment. I remember a romantic interest that I probably could have been very happy with if I'd went all in, but instead stayed on the fringes because I couldn't imagine myself forging deep emotional connection with someone I barely knew for just a year; who was a total stranger to me a year prior.
I know this kind of thinking is a bit selfish, but the World has gotten quite selfish over the last couple of decades. I still espouse strong convictions like loyalty and affection to those in my circle but am always on the fringes, especially with new relationships these days. I wonder how many people my age (30+) are willing to invest their entire emotional energy on something they can't control. I just don't think we're built like that anymore.
