When I was in Nigeria I was not scared of anything even though people normally say Nigeria is not safe I was not scared that something could happen to me. When it comes to my future, I only think about it and make plans because I believe worrying or being scared won’t change anything. I had a worry-free life, but everything changed when I got married, and nothing prepared me for what I was about to face.
Before marriage, I was always relaxed, living life as it was and thinking it would get better eventually, but marriage changed me. Since day one of marriage, I have been living in constant fear of becoming a better man for my wife and daughter. This pressure comes as a result of having a good father. My father died many many years ago but everything I am today is a result of him considering me when he was alive. I can still feel his impact in my life.
Trying isn’t enough but what can we do without trying?
I am not trying to become a better man for my wife and my daughter and give them the life I never had. The opportunity I did not have. I moved to a new country to make this a reality but my journey for one year has been tough and I have been living in constant fear that what if I fail and the truth is, I failed in everything I have tried in this country But I will just keep trying to get it right.
Now there is something I live for there is something that puts me on my toes every day; there is something that makes me want to get out of bed and I don’t just expect Life and let it come as it is. I’m making plans and doing everything I can just to get it right because I don’t want to be a disappointment to my daughter and I don’t just want to have an impact; I want to live long enough to be there for her. I just have to keep trying.
The truth is, she let me see the beauty in me because every time I look at her, the only question I normally ask myself is. How am I able to create something in this beauty? She’s so beautiful and I will keep trying not to let that beauty fade away.