Day 1 ended much like I thought it would. I started to make my list of "limiting beliefs", which is a lot like sitting around and being unbelievably critical of oneself. (Geez, do I really think this poorly of myself?) Let's be clear; I started the list. At some point, seeing all the negativity on paper was enough for one day.
Yet, somehow, I woke this morning feeling in good spirits. Even after being relegated to sleep last night on what is arguably the most uncomfortable sofa ever constructed.

In any case, I was pretty surprised that I woke feeling as spritely as I did, no matter the sleeping accommodations. Given that I had a decent sized pity-party at the end of the day. There were so many guests that attended. Fear of failure was there, as was depression and anxiety, self-loathing...even that overweight girl made a special appearance. She wasn't invited, but somehow, she caught wind of the festivities and showed up anyway. Yessiree, a good time was had by all. Well... almost all.

Post-party clean-up

Once all the party goers had been ejected, it was time for a little rest. Several hours of time passed, and then a new day emerged: Day 2.
This day found me on audible.com, looking through the self-development section for something to listen to, while I performed my morning routine. I almost missed the category. I was looking for either "self-help" or "self-improvement", but no...it's "self-development" these days. Which I actually find a little misleading. What if I wanted to "develop" into a periwinkle lampshade? I feel confident that there is no such audiobook that can guide me in that aspiration. I could be wrong though. I didn't do a thorough search.

As I was listening to one of the books, I decided (a lesson from yesterday) to make a post everyday, chronicling my journey toward motivation and self-discipline. It's possible that some day's posts will be short. They may even suck. Hell, maybe these first two do? (self-doubt stayed overnight, after the party ended. She didn't think she could drive home.)

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That's the plan?

Well, for now it is. Mind you, it isn't the total goal, but it's a start. It sure beats sitting here another day, thinking to myself "yeah, that's a good idea. I'll start it first thing tomorrow", right?
I mean, I've had worse ideas.
I'll keep y'all posted.
Literally.

I haven't failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work
~Thomas Edison

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