Nope, not beauty. Just honesty. I guess you can say that this is the best day of my life or worst. I am suspended from work. Possibly even be terminated soon.
My manager immediately filed an "insubordination case" - please read my previous post. I guess this is the fate of the change-pushers of this world.
I provided them with a written explanation, supporting evidence, documents, screenshots. But I honestly don't expect anything anymore. I just want to move forward from here. I am tired. So very tired of fighting against the world all the time.
I've had it with people at work. I've had it with their crab mentality. They don't see the value I bring.
I honestly feel beaten and drained. People are toxic and are doing everything they can to get rid of me. But deep down, I feel liberated. Even if the case turned out okay, I don't even look forward to coming to the office again. Thinking about the security doing all these COVID checks is already giving me anxiety.
I must have been too straightforward and honest with people I forgot that most of them are human beings with feelings. Unlike me who is a diabolic. Maybe I finally crossed the line. Or maybe they are just a$$holes and nothing more.
I know it is hard for them to see the bigger picture, all my contributions, hard work, my skills because right now all they see is this diabolic person. In the end, everything doesn't even matter.
I'm sorry to some of you all who are expecting me to stay in this job. I'm sorry that I failed you in some way. Maybe I am not really that strong. I'm just grateful enough that I made it to this day.
I am looking for other options to live. That's life!