Weekend engagement 212: My jealousy towards extroverted people.

I have always watched with fascination how extroverts navigate social spaces so naturally, striking up conversations with ease and leaving a trail of joy in their wake. His contagious charisma attracts me, but at the same time awakens a certain jealousy in me.

I long for that ease to connect with people, to become the center of attention and fill the space with my energy, I dream of being able to improvise, to maintain fluid conversations and to feel comfortable in any social situation, however, I know that my Introversion is a fundamental part of my being, it defines me by my ability to listen carefully, the depth of my thoughts and the careful observation of everything that surrounds me.

I have learned to accept my introversion and find my own way of connecting with people, I prefer deep and meaningful conversations, in meetings with few people, where the words are carefully chosen and even silence has meaning, I take my time to get to know to people, to build relationships based on trust and mutual respect.

I believe that I have never needed to be the center of attention to be valuable, I feel that my calm and quiet presence can bring a different perspective to the conversations at any party or meeting.

This jealousy that I feel towards extroverted people has sometimes motivated me to leave my comfort zone and explore new forms of social interaction. I am constantly learning to be more assertive, to take the initiative and to express my ideas with confidence. But my introverted essence is always present, because it is what makes me what I am.

Along this path, I have found generous and understanding souls who have "adopted" me, including me into their circles of friends - without them, I would probably still be the silent observer in the corner, but thanks to them, I have learned that friendship is not about From being the center of attention or filling the space with noise, it's about connecting with people on a slightly deeper level, sharing experiences and building memories together.

Being an introvert doesn't stop me from enjoying life or having meaningful relationships. I just have to do it at my own pace, in my own way. And I consider that I am overcoming my introversion by learning to love every step of the way, however, those people who can function in any social field without any effort make me jealous and to this day I cannot help it.