3 months gone. I am now half way through my probation period since i changed my job. As much as i hate to say, the previous job was actually one of the best i can get already, but still i decided to leave because i wanted to join my friend. Now that i am in an awkward situstion. I myself already knew i can't perform well in this job, not as well as my previous job, but still i took a great risk joining it.
Have you heard of the song from Fastball, out of my head? This is how exactly i feel now. Here goes the lyrics.
Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of possibility
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there's always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say
Was I out of my head?
Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication, it was hard to find
Don't matter what I say, only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet, but I finally woke up
If you're sad, then it's time you spoke up, too
Was I out of my head?
Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication, it was hard to find
Don't matter what I say, only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet, but I finally woke up
If you're sad, then it's time you spoke up, too
Was I out of my head?
Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an invitation, it was hard to find
Don't matter what I say, only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet, but I finally woke up
If you're sad, then it's time you spoke up
Too
If you're interested hear me sing, below is the link to WeSing, i have recorded a karaoke in the car 5 years ago, when covid hit us so hard and i felt exactly the same during that time. The only difference is, that was what the pandemic does to us, and this time around, i did this to myself.
The job is really worrying, I'm still far behind my budgeted production for the company. If i couldn't get the numbers up in time, there's a chance that they will ask me to leave. Its an American company, laying off "burden" is what they do. I have a colleague jumped out of his 13 floor condo, i can still see his name registered in the company share folder until this day.
I'm not counting it on #hive. I have only about 50k HP, its not going to help me to any extend at all if i needed a job or business to make ends meet. I'm still posting because i made a promise to increase my delegation for ASEAN Hive to 50k before end of the year. Since u have ran out of cash and no more bitcoins, making post to continue support the community seems like the only viable option.
Pray for me. Pray that i have faith in God, pray that i have strength in working my ass off, so i can pay the bills.
These are some profile photos of a condo my ex-girlfriend helping to sell. Why ex-girlfriend? Technically, she's my wife, so she cant be my girlfriend at the same time. So, she has "resigned" as a girlfriend of mine 🤣
