Hey! Courage and vulnerability are necessary for a post like this. I feel like often we can believe someone is ok just because they post something in the online medium. Work related, art related or just miscellaneous. I was not ok. But we can always pretend that we are . I felt I was ready to share some of the more personal nuances of my life, beyond the mundane work related stuff. As we all deal with issues.

Because I do not want to make someone suffer as I did I am not dating anyone. And being with someone who does not love you is just devastating for the heart, nobody should ever put themselves in this position. This is why I believe therapy is better. Because I want to understand what I'm feeling and why and what can I do about it. The guy moved on and he looks happy. Despite what he did and how I suffered because of some of his behaviour, I am happy that he is ok. But I am not. And I know that I tried a lot on my own to solve my pain and I did not work. So I can't do this on my own or escaping through work or other distractions. So I will just continue therapy in the hopes that I will manage to forget and heal my heart. Thank you for reading me and for your advices 🤗