I think it takes a lotta strength to share what you did, and to be so open in an online medium. I hope it helped you find some order in your thoughts, and feel lighter. I really do <3 healing can be hard, but in the end, so ultimately rewarding.

I am not sure that another man would like to date a woman who is still trying to get over and heal from her former relationship.

I'm not sure that would be desirable for you, either. If you're not over the first guy, I think you'd inevitably compare the new guy, which would be unfair, and wouldn't let you build something strong and extraordinary with them. Take time to heal, and know you are not alone in this life, even if it may feel like that sometimes <3