I was in a period I didn't plan to stand out in life, it just happened. I was the one that keep showing up legs, doing things the way I feel. I spoke softly even when people were allowed. I choose to remain quiet even when life feels like there are so many chaos and space suddenly.
At that time I i was different people said things like is this normal. That is not normal, it didn't mean, but for a while I tried to fix myself and ask myself is this the norm. I copied what other deeds, I was willing to force conversation even when things were not flowing, I stayed busy just to feel so important and after a lot of so many truths I didn't find funny just to feel among that because that became so exhausting.
So I sat and realized this norm was not making me happy at all, it was making me feel so tired and exhausted and making me feel unfulfilled. I tried to blend in the more, I don't disappear on my own and keep losing myself. I stopped chasing the normal I kept my cool. I kept my peace, I catch my strange little habits and with time life started to feel like it is mine again. It was a useful normal maybe I was not scared.
Sometimes your peace can live outside or what everyone's called normal so if you want.