Hello everyone, how is the weekend going, I guess we are having great moments wherever we are.
While I was a kid, there was a way I viewed my uncles and big brothers, I just envied there kind of personality as an adult and trust me I wanted it for myself, I was inquisitive to be responsible (quite alright that's to wrong) but aside from being responsible I just wanted to be an adult because I saw adults as:
The ones who would always have money in their pockets
The ones who don't get scolded by their parents as a result of their being Smart ( anyways I wasn't stubborn I just wanted to be smarter than I was as a kid)
The ones who can't be broken
All these thoughts were definitely as a result of childhood foolishness or how I saw things as a child but on my side aw at then, it was something that glittered, have you ever looked at your uncle as someone that has no weakness probably because he sacrificed something for you or as someone that always have money because he always come visiting with a gift, that was how I felt when I was a kid.
When I became an adult few years back, I realized that it wasn't an inside and outside glittering, it was a bit shiny at the outside but the inside was like a blacksmith, so the outside was shiny because there was an inner blacksmith.
This is exactly why a musician (Lade) said "ADULTHOOD NA SCAM" , I use to envy my uncles and big brothers but when I became an uncle I realized that the responsibility had a heavy weight.
I realized this when I had other younger ones looking up to me to bring solution to their problems and I knew how hard it was to earn a living, I was not even in the place of their guardian, their expectations on me was just to solve a little problem but I felt the weight of the responsibility that was on me, I realized it wasn't funny and it's not a day job to be a responsible adult.
I lastly realized that there is a difference in feeling responsible and being responsible, as a kid I was Carried away by the enthusiasm of the feeling of being responsible I didn't noticed that it was beyond feelings, I never saw the act of responsibility.
On realizing all these, I began leaning to be more than I feel responsible, I had to find something to do so as not to be fully depending on my parents things are definitely getting hard and they might not be able to carry the burden anymore.
This experience made me learn not to just look out for glitters but mostly strength, stature and stamina that will keep me running,no not just glitters that will keep me shinning, I don't mean it's wrong to shine, but in this perspective what's the essence is shining when you can't bare the weight of responsibility, we will definitely shine at the end but if only we keep running (stay alive) till that time of which strength can carry us through.
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NOTE: the thumbnail belongs to me and i quoted the title of Lade's song of which the link of the song lyrics is below 馃憞
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