I had written a write before starting this one about... let's just say, struggles. I never quite got to posting it, and now that I read it with a clearer head, I don't want to. However, now that I'm bit more levelheaded, I'll go over some of those themes, but with less negative tone.
Basically I've been struggling with motivation and having poor focus. My massage business requires initial from my part which has proven to be difficult for me, since mostly I've been quite passive in my life. So you know, I've tried to get things done, but often I just find myself in trench of desperation when trying to do more things and better. You know, the way an entrepreneur is supposed to do.
And trying to do this business well has taken so much of my attention, that other things I have just... forgotten. But I just made a realization that my approach might've been backwards all along. Having been passive and inactive most of my life, why the heck am I first trying to be initiative on things I DON'T like when I don't even have initial for things I LIKE. Not that I don't like doing my business, but just being consistent with marketing is difficult for me.
As weird as it sounds, I don't always do things even if I enjoyed them, just because the starting is some kind of threshold for me. So maybe I should first practice the "starting process" with activities I actually enjoy, before focusing more on those that ain't so enjoyable. To get those "start doing stuff" neural pathways in my brain to work. It seems like the way to go, because the way I've been doing it, stressing and worrying about the business and how I'm not getting enough done, or believing so. It's time to put business second.
This I have now started with climbing recently – bouldering specifically. Watching it in olympics was what finally got me to try it in a nearby climbing gym. And I can see myself doing it regularly since I seem to enjoy it just for the sake of climbing. So I feel at least after doing it twice.
Another thing I like that I'm trying to get back into is simply writing and posting more here. I've been very irregular here during the last year or so despite that I like writing. I had just forgotten about it. So, a comeback sort of? Well, I won't promise anything, but my intention is to focus more on what brings me enjoyment.
