Laughs, Smiles, Talks, Stories, Lessons, Smells, ... everything.
I put a loud music on my ears hoping i'll get distracted
I dance with the music and jump and run and play
Til' I feel tired and decided to rest
I look around then stare at my reflection on the television
Tears starting to drop one by one
Everything I see in this house reminded me so much of you
EVERYTHING
I can still remember our late night talks
Your joke and how I joke back at you too
Giving me life lesson and showing me that no matter what you'll always be there
I can still smell you here, it's like you're just around
I wish I could turn back time
If I could, I will tell them not to bring you here
If I could, I could've just pursue you to go back
If I could, I should just have stay right next to you
He hold and squeeze my hand as if telling me don't go away
I have class and I told him I'll be back
He opened his eyes and look at me then he let go
Saturday. my dad came and the family decided to stay altogether in the hospital
I was tired back then because of some major exams
I lay in the couch near his bed and sleep
Suddenly, I just opened my eye afterwhile
I stared at him, then started to cry
His not breathing at all
They are all talking and haven't notice that
So, I told my cousin near me to go check at him
Then she started to cry too
My cries started to get louder
How I can possibly believe that
I wasn't been able to formally say goodbye and say I love him
Who would've ever thought that was the last time i'll be holding his hand
Who would've ever thought that was the last time i'll saw him opening his eyes
Who would've ever thought that was his last day
If I have known, I shouldn't just let go of his hand nor go to sleep
I should've just stay and watch over him
Months and i'm slowly accepting the fact that maybe it's already his time
2017 is my first Christmas without him
2018 is my first New Year without him
And the first time we'll be celebrating his birthday on the cemetery
I hope you're all well in there with the rest of the clan
I miss you already lolo :(
I got no one to talk to whenever I have fights with my sister
Or no one to boast with my newly found korean imaginary boyfriend and say you'll like them for me
I know you're in there with the Father. I just hope you're all well.
-badet