Your life becoming more negative and cynical as you get older is mostly the sign that you are not enjoying your current version of yourself, your current relationship, your current life.
When you actually enjoy your journey, you become more optimistic, relaxed and childlike and you don't have any possible worries or too much problems.
You are just enjoying the drive, enjoying your life, enjoying the things that come with it.
And you are not panicking or anything else.
You are just doing what seems right at any time without anyone holding you or limiting you.