Nunca espere volverte a ver. / I never expected to see you again. [ ES/EN ]
Nunca espere volverte a ver
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Nunca espere volverte a ver.
Para ser sincero, nunca pensé que nuestros caminos se cruzarían nuevamente después de aquel adiós que nos dejó un sabor amargo a ambos.
Sin embargo, hoy, por obras del destino, te cruzaste nuevamente ante mis ojos, tan hermosa como siempre, con esa sonrisa que hechiza a cualquiera que la vea, con esa voz que tiene el tono adecuado para hacerte dudar de cualquiera de tus decisiones.
No sé si el destino está siendo cruel o benevolente conmigo, al traerte nuevamente a mi vida. Las probabilidades de volverte a ver eran muy bajas, vivíamos en lugares opuestos de la ciudad, mis amigos no eran tu grupo de amigos, los sitios que visito no suelen ser los sitios que visitas.
Y a pesar de todo, hoy estamos en tierra de nadie. Pareciera una simple casualidad, pero después de tantos años, debo confesar que me alegra verte, me sentí feliz de verte, radiante, feliz, dichosa. Parece que la vida te ha tratado bien y te ha llevado por el buen camino.
Me pregunto si estarás cumpliendo tus sueños, si habrás seguido estudiando esa licenciatura por la que te conocí, si habrás seguido escribiendo y creando arte con tus manos, trayendo a la vida tus fantasías alocadas que lograban sacarme una sonrisa.
Cuando te vi, no tuve el valor de hablarte, me conformaba con apreciarte desde la distancia. Un sitio seguro para nuestros corazones, porque no sé que se sentiría volver a hablar contigo.
Si reviviría algún sentimiento que quizá llevaba escondido mucho tiempo como para creer que existe alguna esperanza.
Y contra todo pronóstico, me reconociste desde la distancia y me sonreíste, te excusaste de quienes te acompañaban y fuiste hasta donde estaba yo a saludar.
Me sentí nervioso, igual que la primera vez que te vi, y mis manos, temblorosas y sudorosas, cuál adolescente temeroso.
Pero luego, recordé toda nuestra historia, todos los momentos que vivimos, todas nuestras aventuras y momentos felices. Recordé nuestras peleas, nuestros días grises, todo nuestro pasado.
Recordé que teníamos una historia en común y que nuestros caminos estaban entrelazados de una u otra manera.
Así que deje el miedo y la ansiedad y me sentí calmado de verte nuevamente. Te dije que estabas tan guapa como siempre y te desee lo mejor.
Hoy, te espero en aquel lugar donde solíamos vernos, donde solíamos pasar nuestras tardes y reírnos de todo y nada, donde hablábamos de lo efímera que es la vida, que fuimos polvo y volveremos a serlo.
Te espero con una sonrisa sincera, con una palabra, y con un corazón lleno de melancolía.
Deseo contarte todo lo que he vivido, lo que ha sido mi vida después que nos separamos y cada uno tomo un camino distinto.
Lo que he aprendido, los sueños que he cumplido, las aventuras que han formado parte de mi vida hasta ahora.
Y deseo saber de ti, escuchar tus anécdotas, tus recuerdos, y saber si aún conservas la esperanza de unir algún día nuestras vidas.
Te espero, aunque sé que no vendrás.
Te espero hoy, en nuestra última cita.
English
I never expected to see you again.
I never expected to see you again.
To be honest, I never thought our paths would cross again after that goodbye that left a bitter taste in both of us.
However, today, as fate would have it, you crossed my eyes again, as beautiful as ever, with that smile that bewitches anyone who sees it, with that voice that has the right tone to make you doubt any of your decisions.
I don't know if fate is being cruel or benevolent to me, bringing you back into my life. The chances of seeing you again were very low, we lived on opposite sides of town, my friends were not your group of friends, the places I visit are not usually the places you visit.
And yet today we are in no man's land. It seemed like a simple coincidence, but after so many years, I must confess that I am glad to see you, I was happy to see you, radiant, happy, joyful. It seems that life has treated you well and has led you on the right path.
I wonder if you are fulfilling your dreams, if you have continued studying that degree for which I met you, if you have continued writing and creating art with your hands, bringing to life your crazy fantasies that managed to make me smile.
When I saw you, I didn't have the courage to talk to you, I was content to appreciate you from a distance. A safe place for our hearts, because I don't know what it would feel like to talk to you again.
If it would revive some feeling that perhaps had been hidden too long to believe that there is any hope.
And against all odds, you recognized me from a distance and smiled at me, excused yourself from those who accompanied you and went to where I was to say hello.
I felt nervous, just like the first time I saw you, and my hands, trembling and sweaty, like a fearful teenager.
But then, I remembered all our history, all the moments we lived, all our adventures and happy times. I remembered our fights, our gray days, all our past.
I remembered that we had a common history and that our paths were intertwined in one way or another.
So I let go of the fear and anxiety and felt calm to see you again. I told you that you looked as beautiful as ever and wished you the best.
Today, I wait for you in that place where we used to see each other, where we used to spend our afternoons and laugh about everything and nothing, where we talked about how ephemeral life is, that we were dust and we will be dust again.
I wait for you with a sincere smile, with a word, and with a heart full of melancholy.
I want to tell you everything I have lived, what my life has been after we separated and each one of us took a different path.
What I have learned, the dreams I have fulfilled, the adventures that have been part of my life so far.
And I wish to hear from you, to hear your anecdotes, your memories, and to know if you still have the hope of one day joining our lives.
I wait for you, even though I know you won't come.
I wait for you today, on our last date.