DATE 01SEP10, TIME 2107
Lying in my bed, its weird how my rack is now my bed, I start to think of you. I can’t ever keep my mind off of you while I’m here. Weirdly enough, my mind tries to keep the thought of you out; thinking of your day-to-day life without me in it always seems to make me the saddest. Imagining what you are doing now, getting off work or getting home from shopping, without me there. The fact, I don’t have the choice to go with you, makes me now realize why we need hang out as much as we can together. Now I’m starting to see why shopping, eating, etc. together is so important. I used to hate shopping, but being under water for three months, can change any perspective.
I’m going to start writing a day-to-day journal, whom knows maybe you’ll read it when I get back. I haven’t been doing much of anything, but thinking. I started reading The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks and almost finished it in one sitting. I’m going to finish it after my next watch, I have around 200 pages left.
Finally starting to realize what I want to do with my life and I am so excited for it all to begin. I can’t wait for to share it with me. I know you have many goals also, and I can’t wait to be a part of them. Here are my goals. I want to go to school while I’m still in the Navy. Major in business, and minor in some form of accounting, so I can handle all the paper work of owning a business. While I’m taking classes I want to also study World/American history, and political science. Now, I know that sounds weird because I have never taken an interest in that, but there is a man on board Charles Shuemaker. Although, he’s a bigger smart ass then I am, and even though he doesn’t know it; he is teaching me a lot. He is my DIVE, if you want to know what that means you’ll have to ask, every watch. Listening to all the things he knows makes me want to know those same things, and for once in my life I am excited to study something.
I hate politics, if you hadn’t already known. I have never voted for anything, and don’t plan to anytime in the near future. I want to know what makes a politician tic. With history, I’m curious as to why the world is in the state it is in, who knows maybe one day I will do something to help out in my small part. After being out here for so long with so much time to think I have started not caring as much about talking shit any more I just deal with my day-to-day problems and worries. I no longer talk shit to NUBS (non-useful bodies), and I even stopped talking shit to the people I dislike (i.e. Vargas, Doc). I try to distance myself from them, and have even started helping them when need be.
I have become more appreciative, I know this because when everyone else is talking about how shitty the meal was, I am thinking of how much I enjoyed it. I was talking with Bruce, and he told me, I was the only person on the boat who says "Thank You" to them after every meal, I found it as a compliment.
I am writing a poem for Bruce because he said his girl is coming out to Hawaii when we get back and he wanted to give her one. I was quite taken aback because he is the first person to ever ask that. It’s harder than it sounds because every time I start writing I get two lines in and the poem is already about you so now I have a bunch of poems to you and still none for Bruce. Our money struggles will soon pass. Remember the day we were driving down Kam Highway talking about the rough times, well we are still going through them if you haven’t noticed which I’m sure you have, but soon we will be in the clear. Of course by soon I’m thinking when I’m on shore duty. My plan for the navy, so you have a full understanding, and a better involvement.
When I get back from Pac I am going to start dropping packages to cross rate to Navy Diver. If that doesn’t work I am going to finish my time on the boat (appx.14APR12) and I will have to go to another boat but I can try to get stationed in SD, which means we could start earlier then when I’m on shore duty at getting a house. If I don’t get SD, then I’m sure we’ll just stay in Pearl Harbor and wait out the next couple years until my enlistments up, and I will pick orders for shore duty in SD. When we get home I want to get a house we plan to live in when I’m out of the navy so we can start making payments on it with BAH.
After that I want to open a Dive Shop with Robert, Dustin, Middle, and Martinez. I want it to be like a repair place a place to get scuba certified and a shop to buy scuba gear. The next entries will be short, I’m sure, seeing as how I pretty much just said everything I have been thinking for the past 3 months in a page and a half…well at least the important things. Besides our talk of children, because I know you are the mother of my children it just depends when and where. That is something I’ll talk about later Love you, forever and always, love babe.
