Hi fellow hivians, I hope we're all doing good. Thank God it's Thursday. Yeah, transformation is the key. I have stood alone and suffered so much unnecessary guilts. I don't know if I was the only one. I used feel responsible for all the people that surround me, even adults. I think a lot and worry so much, even when those people are not thinking about their problems. I just would sit and start thinking for solutions for them. You know, it's not that getting people solution is a problem, but being overwhelmed by other people's issues is not the best.
I never knew, I had gone so far, until people started calling my attention to how lean and worried I looked. If you ask me, it was nothing about myself. There's a younger brother of mine who wasn't performing well academically. So, I took steps. I got him various textbooks and gave him lots of moral supports. Yet, he wasn't changing. I went further to get him a tutor, to be teaching him after school but it was nothing after all. I later got him a piano, just to encourage him and also prove to him that I cared about other aspect of his life, including his passion, but he didn't change. It was just like a wasted efforts. I would think and weep uncontrollably. All these were taking a negative toll on me. My brain became so cluttered
I wonder how I would just keep losing myself for people that don't mind to be lost. The same thing happened to me when I started looking for a job for a lady that lives close to my house. I sent her job links and told her to apply but she didn't. So, I thought she wasn't able to navigate the process. So, I took up the task because it was almost reaching the deadline. I stood up all night for her sake, and told her to complete the process by uploading her passport. Hivians, my enemy almost ran mad when I realised she didn't complete the process till it hits the deadline.
I was so angry , but she wasn't that bothered. I even heard that she had a long standing history of procastinaton. People had to tell me not to bother about her again. You know, it wasn't like I am to accessible but I used to feel for her, because she used find it hard to feed. But then, there should be a limit to whatever we do. Once it starts affecting our mental health, we should quit. I realized I have been so harsh on myself with unnecessary luggage of worries. So, I knew it was time for transformation. I changed my mindset. I realised I am not God, people will always have issues but I should render any assistance in my capacity at leave the rest. It is good to help, but we can't solve all the problems in the world. Our mental space should be declutterd.
Thanks for reading.
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