I've been lurking on some posts here trying to see if anyone want else felt like doing my similar year end post habits like this old Year End Post 2022. Try revisiting your old posts years back and cringe, it's fun. So my year end posts contain scribbles of the important highlights for my year, specifically lessons I need to build on and goals. So if you're still here reading this shitpost, don't expect anything outside a content that's built around being self absorbed.
I think I accomplished half of what I set out for but that's fair considering most of the goals here have indefinite endings. I did myself a favor by sharing bulk of what could have been the content of this post from a previous post.
Purpose:
I had moments when I thought I figured it out but lost it. It's still a working process but I got some stuff going that makes it worthwhile not to kick the bucket early. After some costly financial experiments like paying for patient's expensive lab tests a few times, I learned that it just felt empty accepting thanks but I made someone happy at least. The cons include getting pestered for more favors.
Significant others can get overconfident with your relationship and in turn downplay financial obligations. My job pays me well so money isn't relatively a big deal but I pair this up with a thrifty lifestyle to the point that I don't look like I have any. Now I'm about to be unemployed and just waiting to see how people treat me without the prestige, title and money to help them in a bind. Not sour about it since I didn't have positive expectations from the start when it involves finances.
A great emphasis on financial matters comes from a place where practical solutions to worldly problems can be solved with more money and if you're surrounded with people that are financially capable, shit gets done even faster. I'm sure spiritual healing and faith has a place somewhere in the solution but financing public sanitation and delivering health care services to far flung areas gets the job done. And this stuff is costly.
So if I ain't going to be rich, at least I'm someone that can still do something with the limited sources I have on me than watch and pray to see what happens. The funniest shit I learned from pursuing this approach was that the dopamine kick doesn't even last even when the utmost sincerest show of gratitude was given back. It's not that I don't recognize genuine appreciation, it's more like pondering what the hell am I supposed to do with it. I don't know how some people can sleep better at night after being thanked, but when a similar scenario ever happens to me, I just sleep better with the I did my part let the rest get handled by someone else.
Bringing this up as a casual conversation with some co-workers, and the idea about me being insensitive pops when on record none of these shits ever pulled out some cash for the people they knew needed it the most (their cases). So I say just fuck it, could've just bought more Hive and paid myself 50% kick back from the votes. I don't regret my acts, there's a lesson learned, 11/10 would redo but still wouldn't get a kick out of it. Maybe one day I actually do something that can keep me awake at night thinking happy.
Visibility
It's been a struggle trying to get myself out there versus just taking a back seat and let someone else take a credit or something. Perhaps next year I'll do a little bit more effort trying to be visible because I think this is one of the reasons why some of the actual work I do gets brushed off. But too bad it won't be on the work place anytime soon.
Figuring Out Your Next Job
Probably my biggest 1st world problem right now. I'm a doctor and there's no shortage of residency training programs that want applicants because graduates prefer to not get into residency training for mental health and money reasons (my bias). It's more lucrative to just be a general practitioner than a specialist due to the amount of job openings available and these pay well compared to the responsibilities in residency training. But I still want to pursue some artsy stuff or try and make day trading a viable way to live.
Fuck SEC PH for potentially blocking Binance in advance but I'll manage. I think I'll spend the next early quarters just figuring out what to do in life.
Hive Stuff
Now that I've free up some time, there's less excuses to work on what's going on Hive. Not much to be said here since I'll be shitposting the updates throughout the year. What's cool is that I post without the mindset of getting any votes for these shitposts now which is in some way liberating. I wonder when will some users come out of their shell and start using the place like a real social media shitposting stuff they like without playing pretend creator.
I'm not dissing those that actually try to be a content creator, there's merit in doing that but it's ideally paired with expanding to other platforms too. Getting appreciation here and being comfortable is like staying in an echo chamber to stagnate. Want to see if your content is really valued the way it should be? try getting more likes and shares off Hive because those are done free. If people can't still find it in their hearts to promote you, then that's your answer.
I'm going to do a pro gamer move and self burn as my 
Pursuit of new things:
I wanted to try creating video content just to have an excuse to use a mic I previously bought for podcasting. It's been collecting dust for months and Discord voice chat is the only staple use I get out of it. Maybe a podcast or voice overs, I don't know, better do something different and flex some creativity.
Writing content is safe, but this doesn't feel like I'm growing some creative muscle by using a medium that I'm well familiar and comfortable.
I'll also be doubling down on making more digital art. For those of you who have already heard me say this, let me say it for the (n)th time again and get away with it. I hope next year will be the year I'll be minting an NFT.
I don't want to set specific goals here as most of the stuff I've been doing for self improvement has been a practiced habit. Perhaps more time devoted to exercise and build some toned muscles I guess.
Next year's target, save more, spend less or on necessary stuff, do more creative stuff and pursue a meaningful life, like generic motivational shit to make living worthwhile.
If future me made it this far reading, make sure you learn something new for your time.
