I have never been in a romantic relationship before. I’ve never had a boyfriend or whatsoever. I’ve been single for as long as I can remember. Cut, cut, that was a little bit of acting. Let’s be real now. For a long time, I fancied long distance relationship. I thought it was everything because it came with being on your own, doing whatever you want to do and a little I miss you here and there to your partner.
If you ask me now? I’ll tell you I want nothing to do with long distance relationship. Listen, I am a full clingy person when I like someone. I literally want to be in his skin if possible. I will barely give you breathing space of course, unless one of those days where I understand that you need your space. Oh on a normal day or the normal me isn’t even clingy. The normal me will barely have a random conversation about something I have no interest in but everything changes when I like someone.
With the way I am clingy when I like someone, I definitely wouldn’t want to be in a long distance relationship. I can’t be doing I miss you, I miss you too for 24/7. I mean now that I can’t afford to be traveling any how, I won’t do long distance because when I miss you and really want to see you and pull your cheeks? What do I do? Do it on video call or what?
I get that it comes with independence and self growth and all but who said I want to grow? I want to be a baby forever if possible. I mean I’m my mother’s last baby so I want to be my man’s baby too. I would want to hang out with my man sometimes. Go on dates and do all those fun things often. How do I do that when he’s miles away? I went to a university very far away from home and anytime I was going to school I cried not because I hated school but because I was leaving my mom(I told you I’m just a baby).
I’m done crying because of distance I don’t want to have to cry again because my man visited me and he’s leaving or I visited and I’m leaving. I want to be able to see my man when I’ve had a long day and I want to cry but how do I do that when he’s far away? I mean I’m not going to stay with him or something because in as much as I’m clingy, sometimes I like to be by myself but the point is that he should be within my reach easily. That’s what I want.
As I said, I liked long distance relationship for a long time, till I didn’t. It took me a while to know that if I like someone then distance would ruin it for me. These days most people in long distance relationships end up being in situationships with people closer to them and they start with the whole “bestie bestie” things. So for me and long distance relationship, anytime we see each other, we look the other way in peace.
