This week was a reminder that no matter how crappy things are, they can always get worse. @zakludick has been an absolute saint in helping me keep what's left of my sanity after a horrific 4-day panic attack last week.
I was just starting to feel normal when my hot water burst! I spent about an hour with the showerhead directed at my butt while I waited for poor Zak to come home from work to take me to the emergency unit.
I cannot describe the immense pain. Oh my gosh. It was worse than anything I've ever felt.
I am the queen of burning my hands. Years in the hospitality trade will do that to you. I did burn my hand, but at least it didn't blister. It did burn and swell though, so both my bum and my hand are in bandages.
Sigh...
I go back for another dressing change tomorrow and let's hope I've healed beautifully because
- I am itchy and uncomfortable as hell
- I can't bath
- Medical care is ridiculously expensive :(
So, do I buy another hot water bottle? I usually use it to help soothe the pain in my pinched sciatic nerve (lower back). I was in a rush on Tuesday morning for some reason though, so I didn't wrap it up in my gown like I usually do. It was freshly made and boiling hot, so when I plonked down onto the bed, it was just plain logical that the thing would burst on me :(
- Listen to your mother (eye-roll): don't overfill the bottle and always add cold water
- Appreciate what you have, practice gratitude, and remember that things could always be worse.
- Realize that you have the best husband in the entire world.
- Cake heals everything:
oh dear.
My doctor is, however, changing my medication for my depression and anxiety. The new meds are also supposed to help with insomnia. Please God wish me well with this. Changing meds is scary. My doctor is fantastic though.
I also start counseling next week so that should also help me process what is going on inside me. I haven't been doing very well.
Please do wish me a speedy recovery. Thoughts and prayers are welcome.
And wish me well as I try to recover some dignity. I don't think I've ever had so many people staring at my butt 🤕