If there is one thing I could do to simplify every aspect, that would be to rise once again and cherish the scars of yesterday.
As I look at my shadow across the ground, it reminds me of how reality speaks, that somehow it is blurry and distorted.
Up to this moment, I admit I feel like I am still having the shadow of a broken soul. Perhaps there is a sense of despair and sadness that carries all the pain and trauma that I have experienced in my life.
Yet, despite that brokenness, still, I would love to say that there is also resilience to my shadow, for even in its darkest moments, it tries to keep moving forward and trying to keep reaching for the sparkles of light.
Walking down memory lane last year was the most for me. But yesterday, it seemed so vividly clear with my sorrow and despair.
If there is one word that would describe how I felt back then and that would be “immeasurable.” I would say immeasurable because nothing in this world could ever express the most painful feeling that I have ever experienced in my life.
I firmly believe that rising once again and cherishing the scars of yesterday is the one thing that can make every aspect of life more straightforward.
People may see me smiling now, but I came from a place of traumatic experience and have gone through the most tragic situation in my life, that led to the death of my sister.
It is hard to recover from the pain and loss that I experienced because it was so immense that until this moment, it keeps on hindering me from doing some things beyond my comfort zone. And that, deep inside, I am still mourning, although I can manage to smile for a moment.
However, I am learning that it is possible to rise again, even in the face of such tremendous loss.
Whenever I face a difficult situation, I usually want to avoid the pain and move on quickly so I can always move forward.
How I wish the tragic and traumatic things that I have experienced would be as easy as this. I hope to push the memories aside and continue my life as if nothing happened. I am always looking forward to rising again from deep pain, for I have found that what I do now will only lead to more pain and suffering in the long run.
And that one of the best things I can do is to embrace the scars of yesterday and use them as a source of strength to continue. Every single day, as I acknowledge the pain and work through it, I greatly believe that little by little, I am becoming more assertive and resilient in my little ways.
I love to appreciate life with the moments of joy and beauty in it more deeply. And also, by cherishing the scars of yesterday, I think that I have found that other aspects of my life have become more straightforward.
It is like gaining a new perspective on what truly matters in life and letting go of the things causing unnecessary fear, stress, and worry. I hope that the plan of rising once more will help me to be more patient and kind to myself and others, knowing that everyone is fighting their own battles.
Perhaps the one thing that can make every aspect of life more straightforward is to rise once again and cherish the scars of yesterday. It may not be an easy and comfortable process, but I believe being in pain and agony is not the life I look forward to.
For I have always wanted to acknowledge and work through the pain as I stay resilient and still appreciate the beauty of life more deeply despite the worst that it has let me experience.
Not everyone is essentially gifted with a pearl of exceptional wisdom to manage any life crisis properly. Still, I firmly believe it is moving forward and rising again, which could bring strength and resilience to existence as I cherish the scar, let it exist, and continually handle the upcoming dilemma.
So I would not let the scars drown me in deep sorrow and despair. I hope to strengthen myself daily to bloom, blossom, and grow out of pavement with great flashes of light in my life, for every occasional moment has undoubtedly come for a purposive reason.
I may not figure it out in just a blink, but as time passes by, I hope I will come to discover and explore the beautiful flashes of light directly leading me to seek the truth.
And now I am loudly saying to myself to rise once again and cherish the scars of yesterday gloriously!
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