sometimes known as 'Lonely Nessie',
was throwing a pity party for itself
on a daily basis.
It was raining and there was no cake.
And,
as you might have guessed,
no one was invited...
Even the thoughts running through this monster's lonely brain were se pa ra ted:
Nobody loves me
I hate the world!
No one has time for me!
can anyone hear me?
Why me?
Why do 'I' have to suffer so much?
I feel so freaking alone...
What's the point of this all?
and so on and so forth.
VInspiration for this monster hit me, this afternoon, while I walked back - alone - from the river beach to my house, located in the middle of (almost) nowhere.
FYI: My closest neighbors live at 5 minutes walking distance, I am single and I don't even have a dog or (a) cat(s).
And that's okay.
for the time being
I cho(o)se to live this life.
I usually enjoy my own company.
And, if you know me (a bit), you know I am not the worst person to be around ;<)
More and more, I am realizing that the emotions I pick up on - that often felt impossible to handle, as they could feel so freakin' heavy - are usually not mine.
They are broader emotions that I pick up from other people and from the world around me ( me being a hypersensitivosaurus with long antennas ) . This means these emotions and feelings don't need to overwhelm me any longer. I don't need to (over)identify with them.
I can use them as inspiration though.
Loneliness is a strong one
and one that I identified with for a long, long time.
I still do, every now and then
This emotion has clearly increased over the last couple of years, worldwide. (a)social media, the p(l)andemic and the extreme measures that were taken during this 'happening', play a part in this.
There are more people than ever and yet we seem lonelier than ever before. Part of it has to do with the fact that many have lost touch with nature and thus with their core, their inner child, their roots, their intuition.
No surprise that many of us feel like throwing pity parties on an almost daily basis.
I don't blame them
but I am happy that I am not invited ;<)
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