Fear of Job

My fears started after my graduation. The first one was the fear to not be able to land a job. I was studious and was thorough in my subjects too. I was confident about ny campus placement, but little I gave a look on syllabus and pattern that can come in campus drive. I went, gave the exam and sat in a class being confident that I will clear the exam and get in the second round.

When the result came, I was disappointed. The class was in shock too as they couldn't believe that I failed. But later my college professor helped me to get in a startup where I aced with my performance. I knew that the lack of attentiveness at the paper pattern, poor quantitative aptitude cost me a failure in the placement drive. I learned from my mistakes in the placement drive and prepared myself properly before presenting to the startup.

Fear of failure

After working in the startup, I developed interest in the academics. I began to help the undergraduates at my firm. This led me to attempting one of the difficult exam of my nation. I started my preparation, I took the leave as well after completing my milestones and when the exam was nearing. I isolated myself from everyone and got engrossed in studies. Later this led me to many mental issues like overthinking, anxiety, depression and this all was because I cut myself from the roots - famiy, friends, mentors.

As soon as the exam came I fell sick few weeks before it. I got hospitalized. It took me 2 months to recover back and start my studies again. This idea of isolation was one of my worst uncalculated idea for which I paid in many folds. In the very next year, I learned the art of managing and balancing life along with the personal goals. I am more social now and in good network of mentors. It helped me with my studies and brightened up my mental well-being.

Fear of disappointing others

With the growing stress and extra workload, there came a time when I was filled more than I can handle. Exam, works and personal things. I had to cut the time here and there to be able to be in present with other dear ones. But most of the time people get the sense that I am just a last minute entry rather than being a participative member. After finding what one feels because of my such doings, I started taking care of it. Slowly I became more social and I never had to think about disappointing others again.

Fear of Life

At many instances in past few years, I was on the brink of losing my life. Hospitalization, accidents, and such instances created a sense of fear in me. However, as the time went I came to be aware of how small life is. After many such instances, I preferred to live without fear and overthinking. I decided to be present in the moment and thanking my lord for all the time he gave me to live in this beautiful world.

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