I did something rather uncharacteristic today. Whether it was good or bad, I’ll let you be the judge of that. That is, if you’re so intent on judging. But yeah, I do believe that we need to hold ourselves accountable and responsible for everything we do, so this is me doing my bit to assure myself that this may not have been the best decision to take, but I took it anyway, and I have no regrets.
But first, I’ll tell you about my day.
My day, today was electric. I started my virtual legal internship at a reputable international Law firm, and I had to sit tight to learn Corporate Law for over three hours. Guys, this was not a funny experience. It was impactful. But it was a lot. A whole lot, and I ended up dozing off for a bit.
Anyways, I had to write a test afterwards and hmmm, I did not have a perfect score as I’d have wanted, but for someone who had to face several forms of agitation during the class, and considering that this is corporate law which I have little to zero knowledge on, I’ll say I did a pretty good job. Not my best, but wonderful regardless.
Another good part of my day, let’s see...I made my hair. The hair wasn’t what I wanted and the stylist chose to do her bidding instead of mine, but I guess it’s my month of favour, because the hair turned out beautifully. At least, that’s what I’ve led myself to believe, lol
Oh yeah, the highlight of my day was the Public Speaking bootcamp I attended just this evening. Let me tell you something, you guys. This event was so value-packed that at the end of the session, I was super pumped and pretty much euphoric, it felt like I should run to any stage available and show off everything I’d learnt as well as showcase how much I already knew I'd grown in public speaking just by attending this class.
In between all the internship classes, meetings, webinars, studying, work-stuff, I pulled through, and I’m grateful that my life is steadily and surely shaping towards becoming everything I’ve wanted and more. It’s stressful, it’s difficult and nine out of ten times, I want to give up on everything and simply disappear, but I know that I’ll have many more reasons to smile in the end, so even break downs come(like they did recently), I pick up the pieces and continue. Of course, with my people by my side.
And now, the uncharacteristic downside that almost ruined my entire day. I pride myself to be mature, and one that never engages in altercations with people on social media, especially exchange of insults or derogatory words. Even arguments. I just leave the conversation. But I was inflamed today because an adult decided that they had to be disrespectful because I hadn’t confirmed to what they wanted.
And I wasn’t having it. Like they picked the wrong day, for real.
And so, I did the uncharacteristic deed of exchanging words. It was for a short time. Barely three pairs of messages. But I ensured that this individual knew that I could only be the bigger person for so long. And so, I made a mean statement or two.
I’d blocked this individual after having the last word but hours later, the whole scene still replayed in my mind, and I wondered whether I did the right thing. What I realized about myself today, however? I’ve built character that will never allow me to be outright insulting no matter how enraged I am. At least not to the person. So cuss words, secrets the person told me, derogatory words, remarks that reflect an insecurity of the person that I’m aware of... all of these will never come out of my mouth.
It may not seem like much, but it’s a big deal to me. That being said, I don’t regret it. Maybe I could have done a few things differently, but it was all and always going to lead to this. So, I’m glad it's finally out of the way.
Today had its ups and downs. But I’m glad it all ended with a smile for me. I talked to my sister and my best friend few moments back. They make everything better. Tomorrow will also be better. So, I’m off to eat cause I’ve barely eaten anything in nearly 12 hours. Have a lovely day ahead, everyone.
Images are mine.
