Life hasn't been an easy one, as a child I thought that everything would go smoothly for me, I was going to be in the best school,be with my parents, live with them, not having to lose anyone, even though I know death is inevitable, but here I am , being the bread winner for my siblings, I lost my elder sister in 2023, lost my mom the following year, almost lost my own life this year , But God said no, "My Daughter, You Will Live To Pocess Your Processions" I never thought that I would be where I am today, one thing I am grateful for is life itself, despite everything that has happened to my family, Grief has a way of teaching you things nobody prepares you for how to keep moving even when your legs don't feel like they belong to you anymore, how to smile for other people's sake while still carrying your own storm quietly, i have learned that strength isn't the absence of falling apart, it is what happens after, the getting up part.
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Because of this happening, I have struggled alot in this young age of mine, this is something I have never thought of, but here I am today, Some days I still ask myself how I am functioning, how I wake up and do what needs to be done when my heart is still healing from losses that never fully leave, but I have realized that you don't get to choose the timeline life hands you, you only get to choose how you respond to it, And I have chosen to keep standing, even when standing feels like the hardest thing to do.
But I think now I'm ready to do something different, I'm back to hive and after much persuasion to come back, I am here, I just like the fact that I wasn't forced , I just decided it was time to come back and do something different from what I'm usually used to, this decision means more to me than people might realize, it's not just about writing again, it's about choosing myself again, choosing to create instead of just survive, it is a small step, but small steps are still steps forward.
Life isn't still perfect and I have come to accept that, I just hope that it will get easier with time, that's my prayer and I believe in that so much, and even on the days when it doesn't feel like it's getting easier, I choose to hold on to that hope anyway, because hope has carried me this far, and I trust it to carry me further still.
Thanks for Stopping By.
