Hooooooooowdy!
Well, it had been known I had just delivered another baby boy in this world. Oh well, a new mom again! We are actually reaching our first month this coming Thursday. The house has never been the same, it was already a mess with having two incredible boys and now guess what??!!! It's beyond comprehension.. lol!... though, this is one of the things I would never ever regret having. It maybe tough this time around, I am pretty sure we will get along pretty fine. I hope!! hahahahahahhaa...
My first born has gone another milestone, becoming a BIG BROTHER again, twice already as he often says. He is just EIGHT and he still is a baby! Oh yeah, he is! He may be bigger and healthier looking but he still needs 100% of my attention, care and love more than his other two siblings. I am just lucky that I am able to talk some things on him. I know being the big brother is tough to beat. Now that he has two more siblings, he keeps complaining how he can handle the two. I do not have an absolute answer but I always tell him to just assist mom in everything and plant more patience as his younger brothers will always always get much of his patience now more than ever. He did promised me to be my right hand when it comes to his brothers. He promised too to behave himself and be a role model to his brothers (this I have to wait and see! haha goodluck kuya!).
Hmmmmmmm... the middle child! I know I know, they are always the ones who are full of mischiefs. And it seems to be the current state in our house right now. Kuya Mali has not yet sink in to him that he is no longer the baby of the family and that he has become a big brother already.
I feel sad that he is still quite young to care for his new role for I believe he is not yet ready. He is jus THREE and he could only comprehend a little. It is quite hard for him to understand and digest everything that is happening around him. He always seems to find his place within me that Max is trying to cover. He does not want that Max takes all of me and less of him. Arrrghhh! It is really really difficult how to divide myself between the two of them. And to add it all up, we are trying to exclusively breastfeed Max too just like with Mali. I feel Mali is becoming jealous of Max, he does not want to see Max anywhere close to me. He finds it hard to share me to Max when he was used that all my attention was to him only. He keeps wanting to do all things with me only. It sadden me that I have to choose between them sometimes, Can there me TWO of me?? I wiiiiiiiiiiiiiish! It is literally eating me up! Good thing I am on maternity leave.
Now, sometimes I do not know where to get my energy and how I can go through with my day. I am always drained out. I lack sleep, I could not have enough of it! Every single pregnancy of mine has never been the same either, each one has got a different toll on me. Even if it has been difficult at most times, there are also times that life with them is smooth and relaxed. Plus, breastfeeding has never been the same with all your kids, all can be different and new experience.
They say having three boys are lucky in Chinese. But no matter, I am indeed lucky to have had the opportunity to mother these beautiful boys. I am more than grateful for the privilege and honor to be their mom. They are truly my living treasures, my mini me in male versions (times three).
Maque: Mom can he hear me? Why is he aint looking at me?
Mali: He is looking at me, See!
Maque: Hey Max, don't sleep yet talk to us.
Mali: Baby Max let's play!!!! Come on!!!!
Max: Can you both get out of the bed so I could take my nap now with mom?!!!
Mali: Oh no you don't! I feel sleepy too.. oh yeah.. look how comfy I am..
Maque: Max, do not mind him. He is not happy that you and mom sleep together.
Max: Please guys, I really need to doze off or I will keep all of you awake tonight is that what you want guys?! I swear all of you will get NO SLEEP if I don't get to sleep now. Do not dare me brothers..
Maque: Nobody is listening to me. Nobody wants to talk with me. I give up! Tssss.
Mali: Oooohhhhh Maaaaaxxxi.. I have some better plans, come play with me.
Max: Heeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Mom! Help! These two won't stop bugging me!
This pretty sumps up our everyday lives with these three monkeys. It is always a mess but we find happiness in little things. We will be able to adjust to our new lives and new roles together someday. Everything is a baby step to us. We will take it slow each day.
Sooooooooo gotta go! Gotta change the diaper, I smell someone stinky! Hmmmmp
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
xoxo,
maquemali
