I’ve always been a shy guy.
With the crazy in the world, people like me create the blend and neutralize the toxicity.
Most times i wonder how my friends walk up to a very pretty lady and ask her out on a date.
Don’t get me wrong, i have an experience with dating.
My friend obinna had terrorized me to ask Adanna to be my girlfriend.
“Zuko, you like this girl too much, and from the way she looks at you, the feeling is mutual.”
“Be a man, my guy.” He added.
When a conversation tilts to that statement “be a man.” People like me take it personally, because it questions alot about us.
Well, i didn’t ask her. Obinna was right about one thing though. The feeling was mutual and i knew that because Adanna stepped up and asked me to be her boyfriend.
She also said “if you really like me and your response is a yes, it means we arennow dating which means you will protect my reputation by telling people you asked me out.”
This is the first time i’m ever telling anyone about this including Obinna.
Our relationship lasted for a long time. For five years, 4 months and 3 days. We ended it mutually because we couldn’t do long distance relationship, after we went our seperate ways to the university.
I’m in my 200lvl in university and i know what i wanted in a woman. Adanna showed me what a healthy relationship looked like, and I wasn’t going to settle for less.
In my 100lvl, i had a crush on Dorlin. I really liked how she dressed and parted her hair. She stood out amongst every lady in my department in appearance. As usual, i couldn’t ask her out because i was so shy.
My major fear wasn’t just being declined, its the feeling of how the energy between the both of us will be. How i would avoid them till Rapture happens.
I missed my slot because Obinna asked Dorlin out and she said yes. I never told Obinna about my feelings for Dorlin because i wasn’t ready to be told, “be a man.”
I guess he wouldn’t have said it this time because He also liked Dorlin.
While i dated Adanna Obinna had been in seven relationships, so He wasn’t really a good role model of a mono-relationship. He is what we call polygamous.
In my 200lvl, we had a transfer student into my department. Her name was Ayomikun, but we also called Her Ayo and She seemed cool with it too.
I liked Ayo alot even though i kept hearing my Mum’s voice, “any woman you bring into this house as your wife must be from the Igbo tribe.”
That’s not what you tell a man in love. You can’t push me and tell me how to fall. I can’t really fathom the reason I had a strong crush on Ayo till Obinna helped me out.
“Is it me, or does this Ayo girl look like Adanna?” He asked.
Oh God, was that the reason i really liked her. During lecture hours, the lecturer kept talking and talking but my mind was in another world. The one i built for Ayo and I.
I didn’t know i had scribbled her name on my book. I designed it so beautifully with love emojis surrounding the name.
After the class, Ayo walked up to me; “ please can i borrow your physiology note. I couldn’t follow the lectuerer, he was too fast.”
I didn’t also write much because i was busy designing someone’s name on my note.
“Okay, it’s your anatomy note complete?” She asked again.
Apparently, i used a long note and paired each courses in a book. What are the odds that physiology and Anatomy were paired in a single book. I actually forgot about the scribbled name on my note.
I guess because i wanted to do something nice for the girl i liked. So, i quickly gave her my note and she walked out with it.
On getting to the door, she paused and turned quickly. The note was opened in her hands and apparently the page where i scribbled her name with love emojis patterned around it.
She gave me this glare that is still glued in my head. This was me indirectly telling her how i felt but it was not intentional. If She didn’t open that book, She would never have found out because i embraced the fact that I was shy. If there was no lady like Adanna who would ask me out, i guess i would die single.
She walked up to me, i didn’t know what to expect.
“Do you have a crush on me?” She asked.
Immediately i heard Obinna’s voice in my head; “be a man, my guy.”
I mustered up all the courage i had on earth, and thirty more from my previous lives and replied; “Yes.”
I never saw this next part coming. It was like a blow to my face.
“Then, why aren’t you asking me to be your girlfriend?”
A very good blow it was and i enjoyed every bit of it.
“I’m scared you won’t give me the response I want.”
“Which response do you want?” She asked.
“I will leave with your note now, and i will return it tomorrow, and When i do that. I will give you another opportunity to ask me to be your girlfriend. Is that okay by you?” She added.
She turned back and left the lecture hall. I sat their both nervous and joyous.
“Will She say yes?”
