Joy sounds like a small word, but it has a significant impact on our lives, which we seek out or try to create to make our lives better. I've told myself that instead of focusing all my attention on the negative things around me, I've decided to cultivate a list of things that bring me joy. When I feel down, I can go back to those things and find my spark.
I think since this year started I've been feeling like a different person because the previous year ended with my head stressed from different events that occurred, deep down I thought I couldn't find myself again. I was lost in my thoughts and my head was flooded with those events that I couldn't control and I became so troubled to the point that people started noticing and being so concerned about me.
This year started, I told myself all those that happened in the previous year should remain there, there is no point in carrying them with me to this amazing new year, then I developed the "new year new me" principle and I decided to be at peace with myself without letting external occurrences affect me. Trying to find that happiness from within again, I decided to engage myself in some external activities that would build my mood again, and to my greatest surprise, it worked.
One of the things on my list that has brought me lots of joy would be "me starting to read motivational books" I was never a fan of books or let me say, I love reading but not all books though. That simply means I don't find some books interesting but currently all those books I didn't find interesting, I found them building and lifting my mood off some of my thoughts and it brings me this joy that I can't explain or express in words.
There is this inner peace I derive from talking to my inner man that brought so much joy, I know people are likely to call me talkative but then that can be true to an extent but entirely true though "what am I even saying" oya it is true "I'm a talkative". I've noticed that whenever I'm sad or feeling moody my mind has this thing of talking me out of it immediately. When I start complaining and my face starts boiling like a big pot of rice then my mind will remind me of the things I've been through and how it didn't break me and I'm still standing tall high like a hill.
I would be reminded of the kind of person I am despite not having all it takes to make my life better than it is but then I am reminded daily that I've built a life for myself despite not building to the height I've always dreamed which is still in the process. I'm happy with the kind of person I'm becoming and it brings so much joy and I can actually be this person who is ready and willing to learn. Who is trying out new activities to balance work and my private life?
The last thing on my list is "gratitude" for anything that I own. I'm grateful mostly for being alive and finding my joy in living. Instead of trapping myself in disappointment and dissatisfaction, I decided to make it a habit of always finding joy in the little things around me and being grateful for each of them. I've made a habit of looking for joy "The joy here sounds feminine right?" Well, I will look for her every single day.
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