A giant hello to all my dear members and writers of this wonderful Emotions & Feelings Community, which gives us the opportunity to overflow our feelings and emotions and in such a way makes us drain and make our DECEPTIONS more bearable.
Hoy nuevamente me encuentro con todos ustedes, en esta ocasión sumandome a esta linda temática que nos ayuda a formar y fortalecer cada día más y más como personas.
Today I meet with all of you again, this time joining this beautiful theme that helps us to form and strengthen us more and more as people every day.
¿ Decepciones, Quién no ha sufrido una decepción?
Como seres humanos constantemente sufrimos no una, sino varias decepciones, pues simplemente quien no haya sufrido de este sentimiento cargado de tanta tristeza y dolor simplemente no es de este mundo, sino de uno sobre natural, no hay vida perfecta como para no haber cargado con un dolor como este, algunos con mayor grado que otros, pero dolor y sufrimiento en fín.
Disappointments, who has not suffered a disappointment?
As human beings we constantly suffer not one, but several disappointments, because simply who has not suffered from this feeling loaded with so much sadness and pain simply is not of this world, but of a supernatural one, there is no perfect life as not to have carried a pain like this, some with greater degree than others, but pain and suffering in the end.
¿ Quién no ha soñado con su primer amor?
Pienso que en su mayoría hombres o mujeres siempre pensamos en nuestro primer, único y gran amor, pués si eso es de tontos, me considero la primera tonta je je... Mi primer novio lo tuve a la edad de 18 años siempre temerosa de equivocarme en la elección de mi primer amor, hasta que un día conocí a un apuesto joven un poquito mayor que yo, pero, no era impedimento porque tontamente me sentia enamorada o quisas ilusionada.
Who hasn't dreamed about their first love?
I think that most men or women always think of our first, only and great love, well if that is of fools, I consider myself the first fool hehehe.... I had my first boyfriend when I was 18 years old, I was always afraid of being wrong in the choice of my first love, until one day I met a handsome young man a little older than me, but it was not an impediment because I foolishly felt in love or maybe illusioned.
Saliamos a caminar por las plazas, soliamos vernos luego de las salidas de clases, me brindaba ricas comidas de la calle, ibamos al cine total una relación normal, el me hacía sentir muy bién y aparentemente yo a él, mis ojos no podían ver más alla de la película que mi novio se estaba formando en su mente retorcida.
We used to go for walks in the squares, we used to see each other after school, he offered me delicious street food, we went to the movies, a normal relationship, he made me feel very good and apparently I made him feel good, my eyes could not see beyond the movie that my boyfriend was forming in his twisted mind.
Desde muy niña me han educado de manera muy estricta no me permitian salir y llegar a horas de la madrugadas aún siendo mayor de edad, ni verme con mi novio a escondidas y mucho menos dando espectáculos en público.
Since I was a child I have been brought up in a very strict way, I was not allowed to go out and arrive in the early hours of the morning even though I was of legal age, nor was I allowed to meet my boyfriend on the sly and much less to give shows in public.
Todo empezo a cambiar cuando comence a decir no puedo, no me dejan, nos fuimos alejando el uno del otro, resulta que el hombre me salió pareandero y bebedor, a los lugares que iba daba tremendo espectáculos producto del alcohol, se volvía medio loco empezaba a bailar y quitarse la ropa, subirse sobre las mesas, bailar con hombres y demás.
Everything started to change when I started to say I can't, they won't let me, we started to move away from each other, it turned out that the man came out to me as a drunkard, he gave tremendous shows when he went to the places he went, he went crazy, he started to dance and take off his clothes, climb on the tables, dance with men and so on.
Yo no lo veía en persona, pero mis amigas si y hasta fotos me mostraban de él, como siempre el todo lo negaba, hasta que un día me canse de que me lo estuvierán contando, yo lo quería ver con mis propios ojos en persona, amigos vi eso y más, un día me escape a las 3:00am de mi casa porque mis amigas me llamarón para que fuese al lugar de echo me enviarón a buscar.
I did not see him in person, but my friends did and even showed me pictures of him, as always he denied everything, until one day I got tired of being told about it, I wanted to see him with my own eyes in person, friends I saw that and more, one day I escaped at 3:00 am from my house because my friends called me to go to the place in fact they sent me to look for him.
Al llegar al dichoso lugar no supe como reaccionar me volvi un manojo de nervios, el corazón me latía a millón, pregunte por el y no hizo falta que me dierán razón todos miraban hacia los baños y hacia halla me dirigí que DECEPCIÓN AMOROSA TAN GRANDE SINTIO MI CORAZÓN al entrar a ese baño y ver a mi novio, a mi primer amor besandose con otro hombre y a punto de hacerle el amor, amigos gran falla no recrimino a los gey o bisexuales eso es cuestión de gusto de hecho tengo amigos gey y amigas lesbianas nos la llevamos muy bién, respetamos nuestros criterios, cada quien que haga con si vida lo que mejor le plasca, lo que verdaderamente me importaba era esa gran traición, humillación y dolor ocasionado por ese primer amor.
When I got to the place I didn't know how to react, I became a nervous wreck, my heart was beating a million times, I asked for him and they didn't need to give me a reason, everyone was looking towards the bathrooms and there I went, what a LOVE DISAPPOINTMENT SO GREAT MY HEART FEELED when I went into that bathroom and saw my boyfriend, my first love kissing with another man and about to make love to him, I do not reproach the gey or bisexuals, that is a matter of taste, in fact I have gey friends and lesbian friends, we get along very well, we respect our criteria, each one can do with his life what he likes best, what really mattered to me was that great betrayal, humiliation and pain caused by that first love.
Sali corriendo de ese lugar como la llorona, llegue a mi casa no quise hablar con nadie, entre en depresión y por supuesto no falto quien hablara de nosotros dos. Pasarón 2 años y a ese hombre me volví a encontrar ya más madura y serena con el pude conversar me explico toda su historía y de allí comprendí muchas cosas y fue justo hay cuando pude liberar todo ese dolor y DECEPCION que guardaba mi Corazón.Por supuesto no falto quien hablara de nosotros dos.
I ran out of that place like a crybaby, I got home, I didn't want to talk to anyone, I went into depression and of course there was no lack of people talking about us both. Two years went by and I met that man again, now more mature and serene, and I was able to talk to him and he explained to me his whole story and from there I understood many things and it was right there when I was able to release all that pain and DECEPTION that my heart was keeping.
Pasarón 2 años y a ese hombre me volví a encontrar ya más madura y serena con el pude conversar me explico toda su historía y de allí comprendí muchas cosas y fue justo hay cuando pude liberar todo ese dolor y DECEPCION que guardaba mi Corazón.
Two years went by and I met that man again, now more mature and serene, and I could talk to him and he explained to me his whole story and from there I understood many things and it was right there when I could release all that pain and DECEPTION that my heart was keeping.
Si pregunta que siento hoy en día por ese hombre, les diría que no le guardo ningún rencor, solo me hubiese gustado su sinceridad a tiempo y dejarme decidir por mi mísma si entraba en su juego o no.
If you ask how I feel about that man today, I would tell you that I don't hold any grudge, I just wish he would have been honest with me in time and let me decide for myself whether to play his game or not.
Actualmente el se encuentra viviendo en otro país, de vez en cuando me escribe, luego de todo lo vivido pude entender que la vida es tan corta que no vale la pena malgastarla en cosas y recuerdo que nos hacen daños, yo con el tiempo encontre un nuevo amor con el comparto mi mayor tesoro nuestra hija y nuestra mayor razón por la cual vivir.
Currently he is living in another country, from time to time he writes me, after everything I lived through I could understand that life is so short that it is not worth wasting it on things and memories that harm us, I eventually found a new love with him I share my greatest treasure our daughter and our greatest reason to live.
De esta manera culmina mi mayor historía de DECEPCION, nos seguimos escribiendo mis queridos amigos.
This is the end of my greatest story of DECEPTION, we will keep writing to each other my dear friends.