Me: nothing AND everything!
Hear me out! It’s not going to be one of those posts! And before I get stuck in, let me tell you about this pic I took:
This was at a wine farm in Franschoek. A local artist was set to perform - her rendition of covers - to 100 guests on a perfectly manicured lawn - wine and picnic baskets included in the hefty price. That’s her arriving - decending in a heli. I was so curious wondering who the celeb was - you see this is not a common occurrence, so you can imagine my disappointment after waiting ( for what felt like years) for the doors to open, positioning my phone casually (not try’n to be creepy) and when I saw this local stranger I mouthed: “Oh!” grimaced and skulked off. Now I’m wondering: was she entitled to this? Who is she? Why a heli and not a limo? What does she believe she is entitled to?
You see, I dont believe that I am owed anything - except the money for work I did for that dude for 6 months. I’m still waiting but c’est la vie and also, Karma’s ledger is always zero. I’m not owed anything - nothing, not respect not even success. Nobody’s standing infront of me handing out opportunities. Nothing (and no one) can guarantee my own happiness.
Actually, isn’t entitlement a big fat juicy seductive lie!? The allure of the things I (believe I) deserve purely because I exist?
I know that life is not fair. The world, humans, we are wired to act, do, be?
Whilst I am entitled to nothing, am i not capable of everything? I’m entitled to try (everything… at least once) to take risks, learn, make mistakes, learn somemore, push past the boundaries, and live!!! Oh, and what of fear and failure - am I not entitled to these - unreservedly, unashamedly without reservation, permission and without apology!
I am entitled to (re)define my own worth - i don’t need validation!
I may not be entitled to success but I sure as hell am entitled to pursue it with everything I got!
