" Some things just happened unexpectedly,it comes, even if we don't want to have it".
My story happens a long time ago, when I was still in my teenage years of existence.My parents had a habit of going with our neighborhood even if it's late at night.They gonna have a long talk, while my siblings were away too with their friends.
And me, the only girl with the four children was left alone at home. In my surprised, someone's came and knocked our door.He is a friend of mine, but I didn't open it, because I smell that he was taking wine.But he urged me to do so, by yelling. So I opened it, and he harassed me, and I thought, it's where my life ends.
After that horrible night, I was traumatized, and I began to keep distance, away from men, and anyone who came at home.I have a lot of fears and what if's on my mind that follows me everywhere I go. I changed myself, the way I looked, and dressed, I'm trying to make an imaged,far from who I am before.
Life for me on that moment was vague, and unhappy.I'm always looking on my back, everytime I walk alone. It takes a long time before I finally overcome my feelings, the uncontrollable fears is on my head.
I prayed every night, that I can met someone who will protect me.
One day, I saw the man who caused me trauma, and he is already had his own family and kids. I was supposed to get mad at him, but I have nothing to do so.
So instead of lingering on my past, I lived a life again to the fullest, and focused on my dreams.I continued my studies, after I graduated I enrolled in an out of school program which helped me to be myself again.I joined in a group and community of people who are God fearing, loving and supportive colleagues.
I've met a lot of friends , and support men and women who guided me to overcome my trauma.
It takes few years to forgive but I can't still forget it.
So for me,I can say that we should surround ourselves with people that we can trust, those who are good example , and treated us like a family.Secondly, healing takes time, you can never make it over night, it's unending process but it's worth it, when time comes.
Letting go of the past,also very relevant, in order to move on and continue our journey, the scars may remain forever, but it should never make us stop living.
Take care .
