A motivation that drives me crazy right now because I have a goal in my life rather than before that I just want to go with the flow. It was until in the last two years that I realize about getting a goal myself, a big picture that I am working in a paying job rather than staying in a low paying job or in a bare minimum.
It was until two years ago that I realize something and question myself about things after I realize it. Well, that questions have also something to do with my life like, is this what I wanted? Is this the only thing that I can achieve despite of the hardships that I faced when I was still studying, and so on and so forth.
After that, I set a goal for myself. A goal that includes my family and not just for my own good that only survives to myself. A goal in my mind to get involve my family and my loved ones. They were the strength that pushes myself on learning things to the limit.
While getting myself to the limit on doing things, I've also learned a couple of things. From the knowledge that people taught me to the technical things that I also discover myself while pushing myself.
But despite that, it keeps me moving forward for the sake of my family. It motivates me more thinking that it would bore fruit someday and it will get a better or best result for my future self and my family. Well, I do think that it only not benefit me but also to my family since I was working hard and getting more high paying job more and more.
Motivation is what keeps me going right now, before, when I get rejected by one company, I get discouraged and don't want to explore anymore but now, even if hundreds of times that I will get rejected but there will be a time that I will get accepted by a company or people that will believe in my skills.
