I am heading into a week of gaming on Twitch.
I have been working on my writing for more than a month with no breaks.So I thought that maybe I can just get myself to get some rest and game all week.
I have still got to learn how to do the marketing well enough so that people will come to visit my Twitch channel. Not to say BaeBear_Jean's channel too.
The thing with me is that I aim too high when I haven't even learned how to crawl.
It's like trying to make it into the NBA team when I haven't even made it into my primary school team.
That is totally absurd and everybody that is seeing things outside this looking glass can probably tell.
I need to tell myself to do one thing.
Just DO IT. NIKE said it perfectly well.
Last night, I installed Need For Speed Heat because I got an RM6 promo month for EA Access, where I get to play all EA games that are in the Vault for a flat fee each month.
I believe that after this month, I will have to pay RM20 for access.
I will try it out for a few months and if I like it, I will go ahead and keep subscribing.
These things are worth supporting and I hope more people will sign up in the near future.
The thing is if I am on my PS4, does it mean that I get access across all platforms, such as the XBOX too? That I have to check and confirm.
If it is that way, WHOAAA. I am so EXCITED. But better not be so excited just yet.
I am playing Need For Speed like it is my work for the next 7 days. I will game at the office on weekdays and then get to it at home on the weekends.
It's just getting used to the 8 AM - 10 PM schedule that I have planned for weekdays.
On Friday, I went to bed with all the worries, frustrations, and limitations that I have as a writer and Twitch Streamers.
After meeting a friend, I was spiraling into this negative state that I didn't know how to get myself out of.
I slept till Sunday, with me waking up on Saturday for meals. Then it was back to bed.
I woke up, feeling in a daze, and cursing at myself for what I am. After that, I got myself Twitching the Need for Speed game at midnight and streamed all the way till 10 AM.
I am not going to be playing Fortnite as I hoped to do for esports. I am going to drive.
No, it doesn't pay much for sports.
But yes, it is a niche that I love very much.
I will be going around looking for fellow Need for Speed Heat friends.
I overstepped and made things awkward earlier today when I was talking to a fellow streamer.
But with time all will be well.
I am also going to be having 12-hour streams for Need For Speed starting next week when work resumes.
I was still struggling to slot in-game time with all the writing and reading I need to do. Weekends will be gaming weekends.
I may extend beyond 12 hours. But we will change things on the fly.
For now, this whole week is meant to get me adapted to coming to the office before 8 AM. I haven't slept. So I don't know whether I will be able to make it tomorrow that early in the morning.
But I will try and....
so...
With that set back I faced on Friday, I'm back on my toes, better than ever before.
AMEN.