Hello! I have not written here for more than 5 months. I had a very important reason. I would not want this to happen. I painted this drawing 5 months ago, two hours before my life changed forever. I left for the weekend, because I wanted to relax alone and paint. At this time, my husband went to the doctor because my husband felt pain in his stomach. A terrible diagnosis is cancer of the stomach ... oh god. It was so scary.
I have not painted since then ever again. I devoted all my time to my husband and his medical treatment. Together we fought with his illness. It was very hard and scary. It’s hard for me to describe this period. Doctors did not give good predictions - too aggressive stomach cancer. It really is. Less than a year ago, my husband examined the stomach and everything was ok. My husband was rapidly losing weight. He could not eat more than one spoon. I also could not eat, because I was too nervous and hard.
I also had to work in the office all this time ... My bosses knew about our trouble, so I could go with my husband to hospitals and chemotherapy. I also had to work in the office all this time ...
At first, we had a hope that the husband would undergo surgery - they would remove the stomach ... But then his analyzes showed multiple metastases in the bones, and two months later in the abdominal cavity.
My husband died in my arms in early August .. I heard his last breath and a beating of the heart. It was too scary, too painful, too fast. I told him your pain was over. And my pain continues. He was 42 years old and I dreamed of meeting old age with him. Now I stayed with our daughter and father-in-law.
We are all trying to overcome our grief.
I had to do a lot myself. In addition to me, my husband has only an old father with sore legs and blind eyes. Some people told me that I was a good wife, but I only did what I had to do. I met many good people who sympathized with me or offered help. And also I met a lot of good doctors. I understand that the doctors did everything they could ...
Now my daughter and I are learning to live anew ...
