Hello Hivers specially to this wonderful community it's been more than a week since I'm updating about the happenings in my water world and now I want to feature myself and how I stuggle to find the the self love I'm looking for
I was born a Pure Pilipina with those chinita eyes but because it was like that I never appreciated anything inside and outside of myself. My cousin was too perfect for me because she has round brown eyes that I want,pointed nose and all in all we were so different from each other.
Are you familiar with sagala or Flores de mayo where all the beautiful ladies are called to participate in a night parade. And I've never been choose even once 馃様 but my cousin almost every year she needs to participate because she is called in our place. She even win the tittle on our school Miss Muyta of Santa Lucia High School
After I gave birth to four wonderful child the first till the third was normal delivery. My body was stock in this kind of posture I was thin that people told that I was not like eating or I become (losyang) the two photos above are just more than a year ago. Then into my last or fourth child I went to cesarean section with tubal ligation. Before my schedule I asked my oby-gyn what will be the side effects of being ligated because I heard rumours that you'll be thin or you'll be fat I was afraid because I might got thinner. And because I really need to be operated I just don't mind what will happen to me all I want is to have a successful operation and my baby to be safer than I am.
Then my baby is now a three year old smart girl. I remember and I will not forget what they told me it was my hubbys relativs that asked me (what happened to you your so thin are you sick maybe your body does not suit the ligation process) then I couldn't answer because their questions are one after the other. They don't know what will I feel I just smiled but hurt inside after we eat we decided to go home even it's a childrens party. My kids are so matured they understand how I felt, I already have two high school grade 11 a girl next is two boys grade 7 and grade 2 then my little adventurer just turned 3 This May.
And here's my worst hahaha it was taken One year ago and everytime people judge me I just ignored them because there's nothing a mom can handle even on its down moments. What important is I can do my responsibility as a woman.
And here's the present 