can you pinpoint what is making you feel that way? It is only my opinion, from experience, I am not a doctor but I find depression is a sign you are off path in some way in your life, like your not focusing on doing things that fulfil you and bring you joy, not focused on the positives. Anti depressants can only numb things you still have to change the things in your life and the feelings to make it more fulfilled.

I will share my story incase it helps.
I had severe depression in my second year of university, in my first I was partying, had tons of friends was out all the the time, then suddenly it hit me like a rock. I didn't want to leave my room, I didn't want to go out, of course at uni most socialising was at parties and clubs so I never went, then people stopped inviting me then I felt even more depressed that no one invited me. I remember eventually going to the doctors and she diagnosed me with mild bipolar and gave me anti depressants. I went home and I never took those tablets, maybe somehow the recognition had given me the will power to decide I WAS going to face it and get through it without tablets. I remember going to the gym, I would feel numb, I was doing the actions on the cross trainer but it's like I was an empty shell. Around this time I found photography, suddenly I went off in nature on my own taking macros and bit by bit I re found my joy, balanced out my highs and lows. Spiritual work and meditation etc and manfulness helped this further over the years. Now I never get depressed. A) because I learnt how to deal with my emotions through a spiritual path and B) because I follow my heart now and I am quicker to just let go of things and move towards the things that make me feel better. Of course that can still take time but I am quicker. I think I just wasn't being honest with myself that at university partying all the time and drinking alcohol just wasn't me, it wasn't feeding my soul at all. I was just doing it because everyone else was and that was how to be popular. Once I honoured myself and I focused on photography, nature etc I began to come back to myself.

I don't know if that helps but just incase. xx