UNTAMED EMOTIONS 馃拵

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There's always a time in a man's life when he has to make certain drastic decisions but can't, due to the fact that he's not sure or what he really wants.
I am a very loving purposeful and elegant young lady indeed an epitome of beauty and a statue worthy of emulation, always used as a point of reference for mothers to their growing daughters due to how hardworking she is and the level of brilliance she has attained
I has just concluded her university education and successfully graduated with a first class degree in law at 26, I planned on furthering my education by going to a law school to become a barrister, but i was faced with the necessity of getting married and starting a family of my own soonest, "no matter your level of knowledge and accomplishment, always remember that you need a man, and you my dear are not getting any younger, or are you? " These words of my mother would always linger in my thoughts.
I am indeed everyman's dream, hence suitors troop in here and there, but i would always wave them off saying;"I need to find my purpose in life, having a man will only limit that" among these suitors was Raymond, a very smart looking young man, a medical practitioner who was 32 years of age, whom i decided to make an exception for, i agreed to date him after much persuasion from him and him trying to prove his love for me, " it might be worth my while" i said, giving myself a reason to go for it and give in.
Raymond was introduced to my family and immediately they loved him, because he was the first person i officially introduced to them. In the course of their relationship, i and Raymond often faced problems because of my priorities. I gave more importance to my career and gave little or no attention to Raymond and the relationship, of which Raymond wasn't happy about, this led to a break up between the us, but after a while we came back together and soon we separated again,this time Raymond left some hurtful words before he left he said to me "Cynthia I love you so much but your obviously not ready for a commitment and until you do we can't work", i claimed not to care about anything he said.
My family were confused because i decided to settle down for marriage but now i didn't want to get married anymore because i ruined my chance of being with Raymond.
Raymond relocated to a different country to get over the pain i put him through.
After a while he returned to the country and we bumped into each other at the supermarket, "how are you?" I asked.
"what do you think?" Raymond responded.
"We don't have to do this, anyways I did a lot of thinking on what you said and I discovered that I didn't do right by you, I'm sorry for everything I put you through all because of my confusion, I blew hot and cold I wasn't consistent in my decision, I'm really sorry about it".
After a brief silence, Raymond said," I still love you and I hope we can work things out, I couldn't stop thinking about you in Australia so I had to return".
" I love you too and would gladly be with you, I've finally set my priorities straight, I can still have a family and still attain my dream level of achievement".
Raymond and i got married and found peace with each other.