If anyone could contribute to the rest of my monster electric bill I really would be more than thankful it has been cold the last 2 days but I decided not to heat because I am afraid I will lose power. I am on my last extension. I payed about half that was all I could afford and since times ave become rough for all I have lost most of the supporters I have had in the past. right now I have 4 people left in my financial support system, 2 on a regular basis another two sporadically. I have become a real burden to them and it makes me feel horrible. I have one other person who has been helping me get v-dog for cheep when they can, which is a blessing but not always available.
Another thing that hurt my support system were the people who started attacking me because I decided not to let poor shadow suffer when she no longer could sit , or even lay straight or swallow. They were of the opinion I had no right to do this and should have let her starve to death and suffer. It cost me a lot of support because people like that are loud even though they have never been in rescue, never run a sanctuary and most of them never even have been guardians of high aged seniors. It is easy to judge a ruin a persons reputation when all your activism is in your head and you never move a finger otherwise . In the end it is irrelevant and they are irrelevant to my life longterm. I am only mentioning this today because I want to make clear that my support system has been crumbling. I haven't said anything so far because it was never other peoples job to take care of me but it is making my life harder and less manageable. And i am starting to get scared. I have been cutting into my food budget to compensate as good as I can, which is not helping my heath much because I am eating a really shit diet, that I am only surviving because of the vitamins I take, and it is not really going well either as the mountain of debt I am racking up shows.
I have been selling the occasional portrait (mostly to one very generous person) which has all gone into the budget as well but I was also stiffed by two people which sucks and really demoralises. I am not about to ask for payment in advance of services like a street worker sorry ....Then there are those who inquire and want one but then literally think that 30$ is to much (most of them even get the discounted rate) As I said before I am willing to work for the money but I also am not going to work for hours a on a piece and then just get 5$ my prices are more than fair.
As is I am taking it a day at the time but i will not lie joy is hard to come by these days. if any one can help really every cent counts what is left on the bill is 178$ my paypal is [email protected] thank you for your continued support and interest .
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